My relationship with my girlfriend has been here and there. We were 'long-distance' for a year and we lived together for a year following that. During the year we were away from each other I almost cheated on her and I still feel bad about it. 

I recently visited Prague with a large group of friends and while I was there I took some hard drugs which she is very disappointed in me for. It may sound cliché but during this time I feel that I 'found myself' and have entered a new period of my life. Whilst I was there I got quite intimate with one of the girls that I travelled with while we were high (but I had complete control over myself so I'm not trying to use that as an excuse) and I don't particularly feel remorse for it. We didn't have sex because I didn't allow it to happen but there was some 'heavy petting'.

My girlfriend can be emotionally unstable at times and we've spent nearly a quarter of our lives together. I don't know what she'd do if I broke up with her. I hate to say it but I wouldn't put it past her to self harm or worse if we broke up. But I don't want to stay with her out of fear that she'll hurt herself.

**edit:** She's put on a lot of weight since we first got together and I don't find her as sexually attractive anymore. We still have sex frequently but it isn't as passionate as I'd like.

People have always said to me 'if you aren't 100% sure you should be together then you shouldn't be' but I don't know how to feel about this as things have worked themselves out in the past if anything got rough. 

I don't know what to do. I haven't spoken to anyone about this yet but my mother always offers me the best advice and I'm visiting her this weekend (so I might talk to her about it then).

**Thank you so much for reading my post and I await any advice that anyone can give me.
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I'm scared of breaking up with my girlfriend out of fear of what she might
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My relationship with my girlfriend has been here and there. We were 'long-distance' for a year and we lived together for a year following that. During the year we were away from each other I almost cheated on her and I still feel bad about it. 

I recently visited Prague with a large group of friends and while I was there I took some hard drugs which she is very disappointed in me for. It may sound cliché but during this time I feel that I 'found myself' and have entered a new period of my life. Whilst I was there I got quite intimate with one of the girls that I travelled with while we were high (but I had complete control over myself so I'm not trying to use that as an excuse) and I don't particularly feel remorse for it. We didn't have sex because I didn't allow it to happen but there was some 'heavy petting'.

My girlfriend can be emotionally unstable at times and we've spent nearly a quarter of our lives together. I don't know what she'd do if I broke up with her. I hate to say it but I wouldn't put it past her to self harm or worse if we broke up. But I don't want to stay with her out of fear that she'll hurt herself.

**edit:** She's put on a lot of weight since we first got together and I don't find her as sexually attractive anymore. We still have sex frequently but it isn't as passionate as I'd like.

People have always said to me 'if you aren't 100% sure you should be together then you shouldn't be' but I don't know how to feel about this as things have worked themselves out in the past if anything got rough. 

I don't know what to do. I haven't spoken to anyone about this yet but my mother always offers me the best advice and I'm visiting her this weekend (so I might talk to her about it then).

**Thank you so much for reading my post and I await any advice that anyone can give me.
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I feel like I have entered a new phase of my life when we were
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