Im in my early 20's and im exclusively attracted to boys ~8-14 in every way, i have never molested any kid and i have no plans in doing so, i have never being molested myself either. 

   I usually isolate myself from the world, just stay at home playing video games all day but recently i participated in a activity related with kids (nothing bad happend, again me sexually assaulting a kid its not the issue) and it made me realize how lonely i am, i just love boys, i love teaching things to them, looking after them or just being friends. This was a one time thing and im not looking to repeat it because, even though a had a great time and really enjoyed spending time making kids happy i felt like shit afterwards never before i felt so damn lonely. 

   The real problem is that i have no interest in life, i just dont see the point of living forever alone and not being able to express my feelings, i would just stay at home waiting to die, and this is what is causing a lot of troubles because my parents, they both know about my feelings, want me to go out there and have a life, they want me to go to the college and have a career and im going because they sent me but with awful results, im doing really really bad, and i can tell the increasing stress and emotional tension my parents are going through so im asking what should i do. I have been in therapy many times with many different doctors but none has provided useful help or lasted very long, mainly because i know that nothing its going to change the way i am.
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i feel lonely and i am building up a lot of stress and anxiety, im developing a serious problem with my parents who sent me
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Im in my early 20's and im exclusively attracted to boys ~8-14 in every way, i have never molested any kid and i have no plans in doing so, i have never being molested myself either. 

   I usually isolate myself from the world, just stay at home playing video games all day but recently i participated in a activity related with kids (nothing bad happend, again me sexually assaulting a kid its not the issue) and it made me realize how lonely i am, i just love boys, i love teaching things to them, looking after them or just being friends. This was a one time thing and im not looking to repeat it because, even though a had a great time and really enjoyed spending time making kids happy i felt like shit afterwards never before i felt so damn lonely. 

   The real problem is that i have no interest in life, i just dont see the point of living forever alone and not being able to express my feelings, i would just stay at home waiting to die, and this is what is causing a lot of troubles because my parents, they both know about my feelings, want me to go out there and have a life, they want me to go to the college and have a career and im going because they sent me but with awful results, im doing really really bad, and i can tell the increasing stress and emotional tension my parents are going through so im asking what should i do. I have been in therapy many times with many different doctors but none has provided useful help or lasted very long, mainly because i know that nothing its going to change the way i am.
user
Im a virgin and attracted to boys, parents want me to be able to live a happy life, they dont know how i feel, what
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