My mother died young, my dad remarried an alcoholic woman who abused me and my siblings. Long story short, she was very emotionally, verbally and sometimes physically abusive and I left home at 17 and have cut her out of my life since. When I was younger, my dad worked a lot so I hardly ever saw him. When he was self employed there were lots of domestic fights with my step-mother doing window smashing, hitting, fire, calling police and etc, this lasted 18 years.

I had therapy for a few months when I was 17 years old, CBT to be exact.

He's in the process of divorce and in the last year he got a new girlfriend with two young children. The girlfriend is very nice to me and we get along when I see her, however she always has her children in tow, as she obviously should.

I personally am childfree, I don't hate children but I definitely do not want any in my lifetime. I get along with her children for the most part and the younger one likes me a lot. However, my dad is staying at his gf's house and they're buying one together this year. He isn't acting as their replacement dad, but he's treating them nice, how to ride a bike, doing homework with them, buying them toys, holding their hands, blowing kisses etc.

For some reason, even though I don't want him to ignore or be mean to them, I feel jealous. I'm jealous that they get what I didn't have with him. I somehow wish I could turn back time and things could be different.

I feel childish and stupid and disgusting. I'm 21 years old and I'm jealous of children. I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel awful.
user
My dad remarried and has a new gf and kid is nice to him. I'm jealous, I feel like a child. I feel disgusting in my
assistant
My mother died young, my dad remarried an alcoholic woman who abused me and my siblings. Long story short, she was very emotionally, verbally and sometimes physically abusive and I left home at 17 and have cut her out of my life since. When I was younger, my dad worked a lot so I hardly ever saw him. When he was self employed there were lots of domestic fights with my step-mother doing window smashing, hitting, fire, calling police and etc, this lasted 18 years.

I had therapy for a few months when I was 17 years old, CBT to be exact.

He's in the process of divorce and in the last year he got a new girlfriend with two young children. The girlfriend is very nice to me and we get along when I see her, however she always has her children in tow, as she obviously should.

I personally am childfree, I don't hate children but I definitely do not want any in my lifetime. I get along with her children for the most part and the younger one likes me a lot. However, my dad is staying at his gf's house and they're buying one together this year. He isn't acting as their replacement dad, but he's treating them nice, how to ride a bike, doing homework with them, buying them toys, holding their hands, blowing kisses etc.

For some reason, even though I don't want him to ignore or be mean to them, I feel jealous. I'm jealous that they get what I didn't have with him. I somehow wish I could turn back time and things could be different.

I feel childish and stupid and disgusting. I'm 21 years old and I'm jealous of children. I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel awful.
user
My dad remarried an abusive woman, she's taking care of his kids and I don't want them in my life. I feel childish and stupid.
assistant