To properly explain this, I have to start off with I have emotional baggage from my childhood.  Who doesn't right? anyway, basics of it which I have under control is that I can go emotionally dead, in general and towards specific things.  Infact it was my normal state for most of my childhood.

In my first serious relationship I would pick fights just so that I could experience the highs and lows of emotions that went with it.  If I wasn't angry I was not anything.  

Fast forward to today, I have it under control.  I am able to feel for the most part.  I have a wonderful girl I am in love with, our life outside of sex is amazing.

It is the sex that is driving me nuts, I am a twisted bastard during sex.  She is just as much a match for me.  It would be perfect other than it triggers episodes of me going emotionally dead. (her kinks involve humiliation, control and cuckqueaning)  At first it would just be during the sex, now it has seeped into my normal life and lasting sometimes days.

I have almost quit having sex because of it. (twice a day down once every other week or so.)  I would be ok with this if it was just me this was affecting, as sex is fun but not the be all end all of enjoying someone.   

Not sure if I am looking for advice, or just trying to sound things out.  Either way thank ya for reading.
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I have emotional baggage from childhood, in
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To properly explain this, I have to start off with I have emotional baggage from my childhood.  Who doesn't right? anyway, basics of it which I have under control is that I can go emotionally dead, in general and towards specific things.  Infact it was my normal state for most of my childhood.

In my first serious relationship I would pick fights just so that I could experience the highs and lows of emotions that went with it.  If I wasn't angry I was not anything.  

Fast forward to today, I have it under control.  I am able to feel for the most part.  I have a wonderful girl I am in love with, our life outside of sex is amazing.

It is the sex that is driving me nuts, I am a twisted bastard during sex.  She is just as much a match for me.  It would be perfect other than it triggers episodes of me going emotionally dead. (her kinks involve humiliation, control and cuckqueaning)  At first it would just be during the sex, now it has seeped into my normal life and lasting sometimes days.

I have almost quit having sex because of it. (twice a day down once every other week or so.)  I would be ok with this if it was just me this was affecting, as sex is fun but not the be all end all of enjoying someone.   

Not sure if I am looking for advice, or just trying to sound things out.  Either way thank ya for reading.
user
I cant deal with my emotional baggage
assistant