We've been dating for 3.5 years.

This all started at the beginning of our relationship. I noticed he had a really attractive female friend, and I asked if anything ever went on between them. He said no, but I still had my suspicions.

About a year into our relationship, I was still wondering, so I snooped on his personal computer. He was looking at her FB and porn sites at the same time. I figured maybe it was just a weird coincidence and didn't give it all that much thought.

Fast forward to the present day. I was using my bf's computer and I snooped again (I know it's horrible to do) and found out he's been using FB and Twitter pictures of his hot female friend and MY hot female friend to get off. He's been using their fully clothed pictures plus porn to get off. I approached him and he completely admitted to it.

I feel horrible. They are both prettier than me, have better faces and better bodies than me, and I just feel so grossed out he's been clearly doing this for our whole relationship. I'm not unattractive but they both have big hips, big boobs, blue eyes, blonde hair, etc.

Why not use porn like a normal guy? Makes me feel like ugly.

We talked and he said he has no emotional feelings towards them. His friends even joke about how he hates the female friend and thinks she's so annoying. My boyfriend deleted his FB and his Twitter, told me I'm the one he wants, and said it was a weird habit he had and that it was ONLY Physical. However that still makes me feel ugly and awful and I wonder...why couldn't he have just looked at porn? Why choose HER? 

EDIT: I guess I'm looking for guys to answer these questions...
1) Do you think this means he has feelings for her and wishes he were with her rather than me? He only looks at her page to masturbate and he doesn't talk to her at all anymore. They were close in high school though.
2) Is it normal for guys in relationships to jerk off to other girls they know?
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Boyfriend uses pictures of his hot female friend (who I suspected he
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We've been dating for 3.5 years.

This all started at the beginning of our relationship. I noticed he had a really attractive female friend, and I asked if anything ever went on between them. He said no, but I still had my suspicions.

About a year into our relationship, I was still wondering, so I snooped on his personal computer. He was looking at her FB and porn sites at the same time. I figured maybe it was just a weird coincidence and didn't give it all that much thought.

Fast forward to the present day. I was using my bf's computer and I snooped again (I know it's horrible to do) and found out he's been using FB and Twitter pictures of his hot female friend and MY hot female friend to get off. He's been using their fully clothed pictures plus porn to get off. I approached him and he completely admitted to it.

I feel horrible. They are both prettier than me, have better faces and better bodies than me, and I just feel so grossed out he's been clearly doing this for our whole relationship. I'm not unattractive but they both have big hips, big boobs, blue eyes, blonde hair, etc.

Why not use porn like a normal guy? Makes me feel like ugly.

We talked and he said he has no emotional feelings towards them. His friends even joke about how he hates the female friend and thinks she's so annoying. My boyfriend deleted his FB and his Twitter, told me I'm the one he wants, and said it was a weird habit he had and that it was ONLY Physical. However that still makes me feel ugly and awful and I wonder...why couldn't he have just looked at porn? Why choose HER? 

EDIT: I guess I'm looking for guys to answer these questions...
1) Do you think this means he has feelings for her and wishes he were with her rather than me? He only looks at her page to masturbate and he doesn't talk to her at all anymore. They were close in high school though.
2) Is it normal for guys in relationships to jerk off to other girls they know?
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Boyfriend films my female friend's FB and Twitter pictures, then masturbates to
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