I'll try and make this quick.  This all happened when I was 17 in senior year of high school.  Basically what happened is I had never done anything with a girl, and I was feeling both depressed about it and worried I'd have no experience.  I had a friend who really gets around and he, trying to help me out, had this girl come over who also gets around who he knew I was attracted to and she ended up having sex with both of us.  At the time I was all for it cause I was desperate and wanted to know what it was like, but I feel like I'm the kind of guy who values relationships and not gross casual hookups like that.  And now I have like no self-respect for myself in other areas.  Like I'm in the process of starting a career that stereotypically is very family oriented and I feel like all of my coworkers would be disgusted if they knew and like now I'm not a good fit for the culture of this career.  I understand some of these feelings are probably unfounded but I have no idea how to get over them.  Any advice for me?
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Had no experience with girls so lost my virginity
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I'll try and make this quick.  This all happened when I was 17 in senior year of high school.  Basically what happened is I had never done anything with a girl, and I was feeling both depressed about it and worried I'd have no experience.  I had a friend who really gets around and he, trying to help me out, had this girl come over who also gets around who he knew I was attracted to and she ended up having sex with both of us.  At the time I was all for it cause I was desperate and wanted to know what it was like, but I feel like I'm the kind of guy who values relationships and not gross casual hookups like that.  And now I have like no self-respect for myself in other areas.  Like I'm in the process of starting a career that stereotypically is very family oriented and I feel like all of my coworkers would be disgusted if they knew and like now I'm not a good fit for the culture of this career.  I understand some of these feelings are probably unfounded but I have no idea how to get over them.  Any advice for me?
user
I lost my virginity at the age of 17
assistant