We're internet friends, so we've never actually met in real life. We've been friends for three years and have talked non-stop almost every day since we met. It started out mildly romantic, but his feelings faded away as we realized how hard it would be for us to ever actually be together while mine didn't. I care about him more than I care about anyone else in the world, I know he cares about me as well and if we didn't live half a world apart we'd probably be together. Sometimes I think about leaving my life behind to be with him, but I know he'd never do the same. I also know that I eventually want to get married and have children and he wants neither of those things although in the beginning when we were more romantic he was open to both.

I know that we're never going to happen, but I just can't give up the idea of it being a possibility. Every once in a while I'll pick a fight with him to try and get him to block all forms of communication with me so I have to move on, but he refuses because he doesn't want me out of his life and I really don't want him out of my life, but it's begun to make my other relationships difficult. I haven't dated since I met him and I have no interest in doing so because I'm living in my fantasy world where we'll magically end up together and live happily ever after even though I know that has a 0.00000001% chance of ever happening. I know we aren't going to happen, plain and simple, but I lie to myself and say we will. I need to stop, but I just can't seem to.
user
I'm in love with my best friend and I need to stop lying to myself and move on with my
assistant
We're internet friends, so we've never actually met in real life. We've been friends for three years and have talked non-stop almost every day since we met. It started out mildly romantic, but his feelings faded away as we realized how hard it would be for us to ever actually be together while mine didn't. I care about him more than I care about anyone else in the world, I know he cares about me as well and if we didn't live half a world apart we'd probably be together. Sometimes I think about leaving my life behind to be with him, but I know he'd never do the same. I also know that I eventually want to get married and have children and he wants neither of those things although in the beginning when we were more romantic he was open to both.

I know that we're never going to happen, but I just can't give up the idea of it being a possibility. Every once in a while I'll pick a fight with him to try and get him to block all forms of communication with me so I have to move on, but he refuses because he doesn't want me out of his life and I really don't want him out of my life, but it's begun to make my other relationships difficult. I haven't dated since I met him and I have no interest in doing so because I'm living in my fantasy world where we'll magically end up together and live happily ever after even though I know that has a 0.00000001% chance of ever happening. I know we aren't going to happen, plain and simple, but I lie to myself and say we will. I need to stop, but I just can't seem to.
user
I'm in love with my best friend, he doesn't know the feeling, and I don't know how to get over
assistant