So I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years about a month and a half ago,(we are both around 20) for a long time I didn't accept it as it was a bit of a weird and horrible break. I knew something had been wrong with our relationship and after trying to sort it out it just went sour again.
For a little background information we are both students studying in London. I know we both had our problems but some of the things that seemed to really get in the way was his drug taking and smoking weed. I can honestly say I am a very easy and understanding person when it comes to these kinds of things I am living in London and study here so I'm used to coming in contact with drugs. However our relationship was strained because of this. We had a great relationship and I honestly can't think of anyone else I could have spent my life with, but still I have these horrid dreams about him.
A couple of them have gone along the lines of me being in my home and him coming in with all his London friends taking drugs, ruining everything and me desperately trying to explain to him that I still love him but he just looks at me like he doesn't even know me. I don't know. He is such a good guy and I would love to say that he doesn't deserve me blah blah bah and that I need to move on, but i don't want to. I've grown up around him and everything i own or have or do somehow relates back to him.
I want to stop having these nightmares but I just want someone to give some advice or an insight. I am so lost right now as I am not studying anymore, I don't really have any true friends and now i've lost the one thing that made me think life wasn't all that bad.
anyway i'm new here and i'm not looking for attention (plus this is my first post). Sorry if I have done anything wrong i've been lurking on reddit for years now.
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Broke up with boyfriend of
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So I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years about a month and a half ago,(we are both around 20) for a long time I didn't accept it as it was a bit of a weird and horrible break. I knew something had been wrong with our relationship and after trying to sort it out it just went sour again.
For a little background information we are both students studying in London. I know we both had our problems but some of the things that seemed to really get in the way was his drug taking and smoking weed. I can honestly say I am a very easy and understanding person when it comes to these kinds of things I am living in London and study here so I'm used to coming in contact with drugs. However our relationship was strained because of this. We had a great relationship and I honestly can't think of anyone else I could have spent my life with, but still I have these horrid dreams about him.
A couple of them have gone along the lines of me being in my home and him coming in with all his London friends taking drugs, ruining everything and me desperately trying to explain to him that I still love him but he just looks at me like he doesn't even know me. I don't know. He is such a good guy and I would love to say that he doesn't deserve me blah blah bah and that I need to move on, but i don't want to. I've grown up around him and everything i own or have or do somehow relates back to him.
I want to stop having these nightmares but I just want someone to give some advice or an insight. I am so lost right now as I am not studying anymore, I don't really have any true friends and now i've lost the one thing that made me think life wasn't all that bad.
anyway i'm new here and i'm not looking for attention (plus this is my first post). Sorry if I have done anything wrong i've been lurking on reddit for years now.
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Broke up from Boyfriend of
assistant