I was in a very good relationship with an awesome guy for about 2 years. Problem is, shortly into our relationship, I sustained a brain injury as a result of a car accident. This really shifted our relationship as I struggled to reconcile his role as my new partner and my primary caregiver. Rough stuff. I broke up with him in January of this year because I was struggling with this. Still saw each other all the time and I came to realise I was an idiot for breaking up with him. I asked to reconcile, which he was justifably hesitant about. I became a persistent asshole and even when he said he needed time and space, I wouldn't give it to him. Caused a lot of serious fights. Over the weekend, we got into a massive blowout where I truly lost my mind and refused to get out of his car after he repeatedly asked me to. Not sure of my reasoning. I was physical with him. He threatened to call the police, which I didn't think he would do. But, he did. I ended up being taken into the police station because I would not leave him alone. Some of it was a huge misunderstanding, some of it was me just being crazy and rageful. 
The problem is, that I know the anger and rage I experienced was a direct result of my brain injury. Because, I am not that person. I have also been struggling with depression over the last few months and have not been able to get a handle on that, despite my best efforts. After the fight, I took myself to the hospital because I clearly need help. My medications are being adjusted and I am starting several courses about anger management and brain injuries. 
I know I went too far with him and the relationship is dead. No one to blame but myself for that. But, I so badly want to apologise to him because that was not me and I am working hard on fixing myself because I certainly cannot live this way anymore. Is it better to just leave this poor guy alone or should I be attempting to say sorry?
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went crazy girlfriend on my very nice ex boyfriend,
assistant
I was in a very good relationship with an awesome guy for about 2 years. Problem is, shortly into our relationship, I sustained a brain injury as a result of a car accident. This really shifted our relationship as I struggled to reconcile his role as my new partner and my primary caregiver. Rough stuff. I broke up with him in January of this year because I was struggling with this. Still saw each other all the time and I came to realise I was an idiot for breaking up with him. I asked to reconcile, which he was justifably hesitant about. I became a persistent asshole and even when he said he needed time and space, I wouldn't give it to him. Caused a lot of serious fights. Over the weekend, we got into a massive blowout where I truly lost my mind and refused to get out of his car after he repeatedly asked me to. Not sure of my reasoning. I was physical with him. He threatened to call the police, which I didn't think he would do. But, he did. I ended up being taken into the police station because I would not leave him alone. Some of it was a huge misunderstanding, some of it was me just being crazy and rageful. 
The problem is, that I know the anger and rage I experienced was a direct result of my brain injury. Because, I am not that person. I have also been struggling with depression over the last few months and have not been able to get a handle on that, despite my best efforts. After the fight, I took myself to the hospital because I clearly need help. My medications are being adjusted and I am starting several courses about anger management and brain injuries. 
I know I went too far with him and the relationship is dead. No one to blame but myself for that. But, I so badly want to apologise to him because that was not me and I am working hard on fixing myself because I certainly cannot live this way anymore. Is it better to just leave this poor guy alone or should I be attempting to say sorry?
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Got an injury when a car accident, lost my
assistant