I've never really been good at any types of relationships, since as far back as I can remember I haven't had very many friends and I've always been sort of an introvert.

Didn't have my first real girlfriend till I was 20, and that was only because she chased me.

In fact, all of my previous girlfriends have chased me, no exceptions.

15 years(ish) ago my last girlfriend and I broke up and I've been an a complicated LD BDSM(ish) relationship since.

I'm now getting older and fatter and the girls don't want to chase anymore and I'm realizing that I don't know the first thing about how to get into a relationship.

Other things that also do not help; I'm pretty Puer Aeternus, I still love video games, D&D on Thursdays with my friends (they are also my age), and Lego.  Also slightly asexual, I seek companionship for it's own sake, not for the physical gratification side of the relationship (although that is nice on occasion).

So how does an introverted, aging, child learn life skills that I should have picked up 25 - 30 years ago?
user
I'm lonely and depressed, I've been single for almost 15 years and I don't understand how to relationship.
assistant
I've never really been good at any types of relationships, since as far back as I can remember I haven't had very many friends and I've always been sort of an introvert.

Didn't have my first real girlfriend till I was 20, and that was only because she chased me.

In fact, all of my previous girlfriends have chased me, no exceptions.

15 years(ish) ago my last girlfriend and I broke up and I've been an a complicated LD BDSM(ish) relationship since.

I'm now getting older and fatter and the girls don't want to chase anymore and I'm realizing that I don't know the first thing about how to get into a relationship.

Other things that also do not help; I'm pretty Puer Aeternus, I still love video games, D&D on Thursdays with my friends (they are also my age), and Lego.  Also slightly asexual, I seek companionship for it's own sake, not for the physical gratification side of the relationship (although that is nice on occasion).

So how does an introverted, aging, child learn life skills that I should have picked up 25 - 30 years ago?
user
I'm a child with a lot of knowledge and I don't know how to learn how to get into a relationship.
assistant