Hey everyone.
I'm just now starting university this fall and I can't help but feel sick to my stomach feeling like I'm so far behind in life. 

Admittedly my mental health has been shit. I've suffered from anorexia from the ages of 13 - 21 and having gone to the pysch ward twice at 21 and 23. No one really told me I was sick and I had to get my own help. Last year, I spent my summer in an IOP program since I was so frustrated at how long my recovery was taking and wondering if I would ever get better. I've also recently come to terms with the fact that my eating disorder partly stems from being trans and I'm looking into reassignment surgery. I can't help but feel fake and I'm just causing myself more issues than there really needs to be.

I've had people tell me I've dealt with a lot more emotional baggage than others, yet I can't help but compare myself to others successes. I feel frustrated that I am now just starting to work on my BA while others have already finished graduating, working steady careers, or are able to go to school and work. I'm dreading the feeling of not being able to amount to anything and while I'm getting professional mental help, I feel like it's not really good enough.
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My main issues are with my mental health and
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Hey everyone.
I'm just now starting university this fall and I can't help but feel sick to my stomach feeling like I'm so far behind in life. 

Admittedly my mental health has been shit. I've suffered from anorexia from the ages of 13 - 21 and having gone to the pysch ward twice at 21 and 23. No one really told me I was sick and I had to get my own help. Last year, I spent my summer in an IOP program since I was so frustrated at how long my recovery was taking and wondering if I would ever get better. I've also recently come to terms with the fact that my eating disorder partly stems from being trans and I'm looking into reassignment surgery. I can't help but feel fake and I'm just causing myself more issues than there really needs to be.

I've had people tell me I've dealt with a lot more emotional baggage than others, yet I can't help but compare myself to others successes. I feel frustrated that I am now just starting to work on my BA while others have already finished graduating, working steady careers, or are able to go to school and work. I'm dreading the feeling of not being able to amount to anything and while I'm getting professional mental help, I feel like it's not really good enough.
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I'm struggling with mental health issues and have a
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