As the title says I need some help. Here's some of my history, I was physically abused from ages 4-6 by a baby sitter, my father died at 9, and I was molested by a family friend at 13. When I tried to come out to my mom about the abuse and molestation all she said was "Well about 3/4 of girls get molested." She's never offered any kind of comfort for me or anything, and it really does hurt me. As a result of the things that happened to me as a child, sometimes I have flashbacks, anxiety attacks, and I have problems controlling my emotions no matter how hard I try. I've asked for help so many times and received nothing but " Oh my God, you're so overdramatic." Recently, the anxiety and flashbacks have increased. Today I was trying to tell her about my most recent meltdown (crying hysterically, shaking, had to leave school early) and she looks at me and says "Well who cares? Do you really want people to get in the middle of it?" When I tried to tell her to let me finish my story, she said "Don't be a fucking bitch!" Which stunned me. She says its not an insult or belittling me because she says not to be one, not that I am one. She says these things to me all the time, talks horrible shit about my deceased father who I was extremely close with , and makes me feel like the most worthless person in the world. I've been so depressed lately that I thought about walking in front of a car the other day, but then stopped myself because I know how much it would kill my friends and my boyfriend. How do I deal with this? I really can't take it any more and I don't  know what to do, I'm being pushed beyond my limits. Please give me some advice. Thank you.
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Mom and I have
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As the title says I need some help. Here's some of my history, I was physically abused from ages 4-6 by a baby sitter, my father died at 9, and I was molested by a family friend at 13. When I tried to come out to my mom about the abuse and molestation all she said was "Well about 3/4 of girls get molested." She's never offered any kind of comfort for me or anything, and it really does hurt me. As a result of the things that happened to me as a child, sometimes I have flashbacks, anxiety attacks, and I have problems controlling my emotions no matter how hard I try. I've asked for help so many times and received nothing but " Oh my God, you're so overdramatic." Recently, the anxiety and flashbacks have increased. Today I was trying to tell her about my most recent meltdown (crying hysterically, shaking, had to leave school early) and she looks at me and says "Well who cares? Do you really want people to get in the middle of it?" When I tried to tell her to let me finish my story, she said "Don't be a fucking bitch!" Which stunned me. She says its not an insult or belittling me because she says not to be one, not that I am one. She says these things to me all the time, talks horrible shit about my deceased father who I was extremely close with , and makes me feel like the most worthless person in the world. I've been so depressed lately that I thought about walking in front of a car the other day, but then stopped myself because I know how much it would kill my friends and my boyfriend. How do I deal with this? I really can't take it any more and I don't  know what to do, I'm being pushed beyond my limits. Please give me some advice. Thank you.
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I have been molested
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