Basically she is a coworker that I used to hang around with and we basically flirted. At least it felt like we were flirting cause I really saw that she liked me too. Basically I'm too coward to ask her out. I might have scared her off without even knowing cause I behaved delusional because I felt her slip away. 

I just want to forget about her. I've been thinking about her 2-3 hours straight. She has crossed my mind every day for months. She apparently has a bf or told me that to get me away. I work with her once a month or two and I wait with eager anticipation for that day to see her smile, laugh, and talk. It feels really good on those days, but it might just be like moving a dagger out of your body. It might seem like a good idea, but it's just killing you.

I feel that my love (or obsession you might call it) has come to the point where its become unhealthy. I have this constant urge to call her, message her, just get a glance of her at her new place of work, but I resist. I still snoop around her pictures on facebook though when I really really miss her which is all the time. I tried to block her and cut all contact, but I only lasted 4 days.

I think false hope has been keeping my heart beating for all this time, but hope has disintegrated into a pile of rubble by now. Sometimes I even feel dead on the inside. There are times when I think, thinking about her leads me a depressed life. Now my only way of feeling better would be to erase her from my captive heart. Do we have that technology yet or do I have to go with cheap tactics like finding another hobby, finding someone else, etc. 

She isn't perfect, but tell that to my watery eyes, and my 1 false move away from heart attack ridden heart when I see her smile or hear her voice.
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I need to stop thinking about her and just forget that I am a lonely man who needs
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Basically she is a coworker that I used to hang around with and we basically flirted. At least it felt like we were flirting cause I really saw that she liked me too. Basically I'm too coward to ask her out. I might have scared her off without even knowing cause I behaved delusional because I felt her slip away. 

I just want to forget about her. I've been thinking about her 2-3 hours straight. She has crossed my mind every day for months. She apparently has a bf or told me that to get me away. I work with her once a month or two and I wait with eager anticipation for that day to see her smile, laugh, and talk. It feels really good on those days, but it might just be like moving a dagger out of your body. It might seem like a good idea, but it's just killing you.

I feel that my love (or obsession you might call it) has come to the point where its become unhealthy. I have this constant urge to call her, message her, just get a glance of her at her new place of work, but I resist. I still snoop around her pictures on facebook though when I really really miss her which is all the time. I tried to block her and cut all contact, but I only lasted 4 days.

I think false hope has been keeping my heart beating for all this time, but hope has disintegrated into a pile of rubble by now. Sometimes I even feel dead on the inside. There are times when I think, thinking about her leads me a depressed life. Now my only way of feeling better would be to erase her from my captive heart. Do we have that technology yet or do I have to go with cheap tactics like finding another hobby, finding someone else, etc. 

She isn't perfect, but tell that to my watery eyes, and my 1 false move away from heart attack ridden heart when I see her smile or hear her voice.
user
I suck, but I love her, which is why I can't get rid of her. I want to
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