I am asking this on behalf of a close friend of mine who is a 22 year old female. She is one of the sweetest most innocent people I know, but recently I learned that she suffers from some pretty severe self condemnation issues. She can trace this back to journal entry when she was just 10 years old, and when she was in her teens she would cut herself after doing something wrong by her parents (mostly her super strict dad), because she felt it was "necessary". 
Recently she revealed that, essentially as a safer alternative to cutting she (I know this sounds odd) but she would masturbate. Evidently, this works for her because she was always taught growing up that masturbating is like, super wrong (sexual immorality by view of overly strict religious father), but of course she did it on occasion anyway for the same reasons we all do. So, instead of cutting herself, she taught herself to go do that, and then, (they way she described it), she would use the guilt of being "sexually immoral" that came afterwards as her means of self punishment and dwell on her idea that she was terrible for doing this until she felt the "punishment" was sufficient; as an alternative to cutting. 
Evidently this has gotten to the point of what i think is called a learned reaction in the psychology world. She said that there's been a few times where she will go to masturbate, simply as a stress relief, (after seeing the idea online) or to help her sleep (basically any reason besides self punishment), but instead of the intended reaction, she will automatically start crying and feeling like crap as was intended all those other times. 
Recently she, for the first time, got close with a guy (her first boyfriend), and while she stopped before she completely orgasmed or anything, she evidently got the same reaction, cried got super upset and felt terrible. So evidently, it is not something she can control any longer. 
Any more details needed, and I will post whatever I can, I can't bear to think of how this will effect her and her future relationships, and she is such a nice person.
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My friend has learned to masturbate as a form of self punishment after being
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I am asking this on behalf of a close friend of mine who is a 22 year old female. She is one of the sweetest most innocent people I know, but recently I learned that she suffers from some pretty severe self condemnation issues. She can trace this back to journal entry when she was just 10 years old, and when she was in her teens she would cut herself after doing something wrong by her parents (mostly her super strict dad), because she felt it was "necessary". 
Recently she revealed that, essentially as a safer alternative to cutting she (I know this sounds odd) but she would masturbate. Evidently, this works for her because she was always taught growing up that masturbating is like, super wrong (sexual immorality by view of overly strict religious father), but of course she did it on occasion anyway for the same reasons we all do. So, instead of cutting herself, she taught herself to go do that, and then, (they way she described it), she would use the guilt of being "sexually immoral" that came afterwards as her means of self punishment and dwell on her idea that she was terrible for doing this until she felt the "punishment" was sufficient; as an alternative to cutting. 
Evidently this has gotten to the point of what i think is called a learned reaction in the psychology world. She said that there's been a few times where she will go to masturbate, simply as a stress relief, (after seeing the idea online) or to help her sleep (basically any reason besides self punishment), but instead of the intended reaction, she will automatically start crying and feeling like crap as was intended all those other times. 
Recently she, for the first time, got close with a guy (her first boyfriend), and while she stopped before she completely orgasmed or anything, she evidently got the same reaction, cried got super upset and felt terrible. So evidently, it is not something she can control any longer. 
Any more details needed, and I will post whatever I can, I can't bear to think of how this will effect her and her future relationships, and she is such a nice person.
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Friend did self-punishment as a coping method to avoid cutting herself. Now that she
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