Hey reddit, so as a little beginning to this I might as well as I am 15, freshman in highschool, and male. Well my problem here is my utter complete hate for my dad. When I say hate I mean completely. I have no respect for the man and tell people I have no dad. This all started when I was going into sixth grade. My mom and dad went on a vacation together while me ad my sister went to my grandmas house. When we got home I was so excited to see my dad(I was a little boy who wanted to play with his dad for the first time in weeks) I was setting up the wii with guitar hero to play with him when my parents called me up. I ran up the stairs to see my family outside, everyone in tears. I asked what was wrong and my parents explained to me what my dad had done. I was horrified. He cheated on my mom ON MY BIRTHDAY, not around my birthday, but on it. He said he wasn't cared for enough and had to. Please note I would stay up till 2 am and wait for him to come home from business trips to say hi to him, I'd crash soon after. I burst into tears and ran upstairs. I then proceeded to close off my emotions and myself entirely to him. I did not speak to him, make eye contact with him, or be in the same room as him for an entire year.

After a while I soon began to speak to him, but not like or respect him. Eventually the divorce made my sister and mom fight a lot, I was forgotten about so I began to cut myself furiously in 8th grade, I didn't try to his the wounds because I just wanted someone to notice me, nobody did. I even thought of suicide a few times, I got up to a chair with the noose around my head, but couldn't do it. I completely blame my dad for this and don't really know what to do, should I try and like him again, idk if I could ever respect him again though! So reddit, any advice?(I quit cutting btw and the suicide thoughts are very minimal)
user
My dad had an affair on my birthday, led to me cutting myself and near suicide.
assistant
Hey reddit, so as a little beginning to this I might as well as I am 15, freshman in highschool, and male. Well my problem here is my utter complete hate for my dad. When I say hate I mean completely. I have no respect for the man and tell people I have no dad. This all started when I was going into sixth grade. My mom and dad went on a vacation together while me ad my sister went to my grandmas house. When we got home I was so excited to see my dad(I was a little boy who wanted to play with his dad for the first time in weeks) I was setting up the wii with guitar hero to play with him when my parents called me up. I ran up the stairs to see my family outside, everyone in tears. I asked what was wrong and my parents explained to me what my dad had done. I was horrified. He cheated on my mom ON MY BIRTHDAY, not around my birthday, but on it. He said he wasn't cared for enough and had to. Please note I would stay up till 2 am and wait for him to come home from business trips to say hi to him, I'd crash soon after. I burst into tears and ran upstairs. I then proceeded to close off my emotions and myself entirely to him. I did not speak to him, make eye contact with him, or be in the same room as him for an entire year.

After a while I soon began to speak to him, but not like or respect him. Eventually the divorce made my sister and mom fight a lot, I was forgotten about so I began to cut myself furiously in 8th grade, I didn't try to his the wounds because I just wanted someone to notice me, nobody did. I even thought of suicide a few times, I got up to a chair with the noose around my head, but couldn't do it. I completely blame my dad for this and don't really know what to do, should I try and like him again, idk if I could ever respect him again though! So reddit, any advice?(I quit cutting btw and the suicide thoughts are very minimal)
user
My dad cheated on my mom, I cut myself, and now I have no respect for him. Please
assistant