Wanting someone so badly to the point where it leaves you empty is the loneliest feeling in the world. Especially when they don't love you in the way that they used to one day to the other. You begin to question what you did wrong. Did he actually find my appearance repulsive? Did he hate my voice? Can I change that so we can go back to how it used to be? And you want this person with every fibre of your being. But things change; just like the seasons. The part that hurts the most is not only that I opened myself up to him, but also that I gave him so much time out of my life just to have it blow up in my face. Now I'm left with shitty grades and a shitty act score because I invested so much time in him and wanting to give up everything just to be with him (e.g. going to his college), but his argument is that this sort of thing has happened before and he didn't want to get hurt again. The thing is, he realized this all of a sudden when I began to love him back.

Whenever I asked for some time to just focus on my studies he completely ignored it and always needed an explanation. Well the truest of them is that I didn't want to get sucked in because I knew that when I get attached I'm fragile as fuck. But he pushed himself on me and I gave him the time that I had never given anyone. This left me with a broken heart and a really fucked up mindset. Now that I need an explanation and talking, he's short worded and living his life. If he started treating me like he did a month ago, I'm afraid that I would run right back to him. After all the pain, tears, and restlessness I still want him. And I want to tell him that it could work out, I could apply to the college he's going to and we could finally be happy together. Perhaps I'm acting reckless because this is the first guy I've ever really loved, but it still eats away at me. I was going through my texts this morning and I noticed how into him I was and how much I wish we could give us a shot.
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A guy, who I met through tumblr, said he loved me a month ago isn't reciprocating it anymore because he thought that he would get hurt from the long distance. But I'm still in love with him
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Wanting someone so badly to the point where it leaves you empty is the loneliest feeling in the world. Especially when they don't love you in the way that they used to one day to the other. You begin to question what you did wrong. Did he actually find my appearance repulsive? Did he hate my voice? Can I change that so we can go back to how it used to be? And you want this person with every fibre of your being. But things change; just like the seasons. The part that hurts the most is not only that I opened myself up to him, but also that I gave him so much time out of my life just to have it blow up in my face. Now I'm left with shitty grades and a shitty act score because I invested so much time in him and wanting to give up everything just to be with him (e.g. going to his college), but his argument is that this sort of thing has happened before and he didn't want to get hurt again. The thing is, he realized this all of a sudden when I began to love him back.

Whenever I asked for some time to just focus on my studies he completely ignored it and always needed an explanation. Well the truest of them is that I didn't want to get sucked in because I knew that when I get attached I'm fragile as fuck. But he pushed himself on me and I gave him the time that I had never given anyone. This left me with a broken heart and a really fucked up mindset. Now that I need an explanation and talking, he's short worded and living his life. If he started treating me like he did a month ago, I'm afraid that I would run right back to him. After all the pain, tears, and restlessness I still want him. And I want to tell him that it could work out, I could apply to the college he's going to and we could finally be happy together. Perhaps I'm acting reckless because this is the first guy I've ever really loved, but it still eats away at me. I was going through my texts this morning and I noticed how into him I was and how much I wish we could give us a shot.
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having an irrational crush on a ldr I don't know if I should ruin my entire future for just one guy.
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