I've never felt like I've fucked up this bad before. I've faced layoffs, college, military service, crippling debt, marriage. Despite any questionable decision related to any of these and more, I've been able to pick myself up and kept moving forward. But, then again, I've never lost someone I've ever loved before

Two years ago I met a woman that challenged my perspective on pretty much everything. I didn't agree with everything she said or believed in and I got to impart some of my hard earned wisdom too, but ... I became a different person from having met her. I found excitement in living, trying, and growing again. Passion became a staple in my day-to-day routine. 

We maintained a long distance relationship and didn't see each other often, but when we did, I had a hard time imagining wanting to spend that time with anyone else. ... Long story short. She's since cut me out of her life. She married a guy on a whim that she knew for less than a month and has made her new-found priorities clear.

It's been over a month since I've heard from her and I feel the absence, aching, and longing every day. I'm finding it hard to enjoy even the smallest things she introduced to my life. I feel like I'm scuba diving scuba diving, I feel suspended, a spectator in my life, and it takes concerted effort and concentration to breathe.

I knew when I met her she was something special, but I was afraid to give up my life, what I had built, and take a chance on her. Every day for the past month, I've felt like that was the biggest mistake I've made in my life.

I see no way of ever getting her back. I know I'll have to move on, but I don't know how. I don't know how to let go. As an INTJ and Cancer, letting go isn't my strong suit. In the meantime, I'm suffering, suffocating on regret, and I just want to feel alive again, not hollow and aching. I want to like myself again, like I did when I was with her.
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I met a woman that challenged my perspective on pretty much everything and made me realize I was in the wrong decision. I came to terms with my mistake but I feel like I'm
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I've never felt like I've fucked up this bad before. I've faced layoffs, college, military service, crippling debt, marriage. Despite any questionable decision related to any of these and more, I've been able to pick myself up and kept moving forward. But, then again, I've never lost someone I've ever loved before

Two years ago I met a woman that challenged my perspective on pretty much everything. I didn't agree with everything she said or believed in and I got to impart some of my hard earned wisdom too, but ... I became a different person from having met her. I found excitement in living, trying, and growing again. Passion became a staple in my day-to-day routine. 

We maintained a long distance relationship and didn't see each other often, but when we did, I had a hard time imagining wanting to spend that time with anyone else. ... Long story short. She's since cut me out of her life. She married a guy on a whim that she knew for less than a month and has made her new-found priorities clear.

It's been over a month since I've heard from her and I feel the absence, aching, and longing every day. I'm finding it hard to enjoy even the smallest things she introduced to my life. I feel like I'm scuba diving scuba diving, I feel suspended, a spectator in my life, and it takes concerted effort and concentration to breathe.

I knew when I met her she was something special, but I was afraid to give up my life, what I had built, and take a chance on her. Every day for the past month, I've felt like that was the biggest mistake I've made in my life.

I see no way of ever getting her back. I know I'll have to move on, but I don't know how. I don't know how to let go. As an INTJ and Cancer, letting go isn't my strong suit. In the meantime, I'm suffering, suffocating on regret, and I just want to feel alive again, not hollow and aching. I want to like myself again, like I did when I was with her.
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Lost my best friend, feel like I've met an amazing person and haven't worked out.
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