I don't really know what to type.. I wont bore you with our story, however.. we tried again and this morning she told me she didnt want to try anymore (One of the reasons being that I take strong sleeping pills and if I stay awake  to long whine Ive taken them, I start to say really strange shit, like hallucinating  and stuff).. and as we spoke while I had taken one of them, I stayed up past the "deadline" and she got scared about what I said. I have no memory of what I said. 

However, I was fine with her leaving when I was at work (She texted me).. but once I got home.. I just started to cry. 

I don't know how to handle this shit.. Ive lost everything now. Everything makes me sad and I cant calm down.
user
I miss my ex alot, so sad I dont know how to handle it. How do you
assistant
I don't really know what to type.. I wont bore you with our story, however.. we tried again and this morning she told me she didnt want to try anymore (One of the reasons being that I take strong sleeping pills and if I stay awake  to long whine Ive taken them, I start to say really strange shit, like hallucinating  and stuff).. and as we spoke while I had taken one of them, I stayed up past the "deadline" and she got scared about what I said. I have no memory of what I said. 

However, I was fine with her leaving when I was at work (She texted me).. but once I got home.. I just started to cry. 

I don't know how to handle this shit.. Ive lost everything now. Everything makes me sad and I cant calm down.
user
Me [24M] broke up with [24F] which was for 4 years. She got scared of me talking
assistant