Hi. I'm 26 M and have been with my girlfriend (26/f) for nearly 3 years. I love her greatly and don't want to date anyone else.

However, I recently found myself wanting to try messing around with a guy (not a specific one). I was on Craigslist and found someone in my suburb that was walking around and looking for someone to meet.

My gf was asleep so I went for a walk and nearly ended up meeting the guy. We passed each other at one point but I chickened out and kept going and came home. The plan was to touch and maybe do oral on each other.

I'm glad I didn't do it but can't help feeling weird. I have not done anything with a man before, and don't want to date anyone other than my gf. I would suggest fooling around with a third person with her but I know she wouldn't be that in to it (she can be a bit reserved).

I've been cheated on in previous relationships and know how hurtful it is, but this feels different somehow. I just want to give a blowjob once in my life but don't plan on being single ever again and getting the opportunity.

Should I tell her what I almost did? Am I a monster?
user
Almost tried sex with a random guy, don't know what to do.
assistant
Hi. I'm 26 M and have been with my girlfriend (26/f) for nearly 3 years. I love her greatly and don't want to date anyone else.

However, I recently found myself wanting to try messing around with a guy (not a specific one). I was on Craigslist and found someone in my suburb that was walking around and looking for someone to meet.

My gf was asleep so I went for a walk and nearly ended up meeting the guy. We passed each other at one point but I chickened out and kept going and came home. The plan was to touch and maybe do oral on each other.

I'm glad I didn't do it but can't help feeling weird. I have not done anything with a man before, and don't want to date anyone other than my gf. I would suggest fooling around with a third person with her but I know she wouldn't be that in to it (she can be a bit reserved).

I've been cheated on in previous relationships and know how hurtful it is, but this feels different somehow. I just want to give a blowjob once in my life but don't plan on being single ever again and getting the opportunity.

Should I tell her what I almost did? Am I a monster?
user
Almost did oral on a random guy. I'm not sure if I should tell my gf. EDIT: I'm
assistant