Hello Reddit, thanks for taking your time to read this!

My boyfriend and I have been together for about one year now, we love each other very much, but my problem is that I still don't feel 100% comfortable with him. I have absolutely no reason to feel this way because he's always very sweet and understanding. The thing is that I used to blush a lot, I worked on it and I am way more at peace with myself than I was a couple of years ago. I couldn't go out to dinner with my friends without blushing at random moments whenever I started thinking about it. This doesn't happen any more with my friends, because I just think "fuck this, I don't care what they think of me". Unfortunately, when it comes to my boyfriend, I DO care what he thinks of me & my looks. I used to blush a lot with him too but luckily that has got better, as I got to know him better and he never made a remark about it. But it's still not completely gone, especially in new situations: family dinners, spending an evening out with his friends,...
When I'm alone talking to his friends, I'm at ease, but when he joins the conversation, I'm immediately a bit nervous.

I plan on continuing to work on my blushing problem, it has a lot do with self-confidence too, and the longer I'm with him, the more comfortable I am. I probably should talk to him about it, but I don't really feel comfortable talking about it to anyone I know (did talk to a therapist, didn't mind that :)). I just don't want to be reminded of it by a friend who I confided in long after the problem is gone/mostly gone.
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I feel less at ease with my boyfriend than with my friends mainly due to me going red in the face for no real reason. I think I just want to look... perfect to him. It's a bit tiring sometimes. Are there any other Redditors with the
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Hello Reddit, thanks for taking your time to read this!

My boyfriend and I have been together for about one year now, we love each other very much, but my problem is that I still don't feel 100% comfortable with him. I have absolutely no reason to feel this way because he's always very sweet and understanding. The thing is that I used to blush a lot, I worked on it and I am way more at peace with myself than I was a couple of years ago. I couldn't go out to dinner with my friends without blushing at random moments whenever I started thinking about it. This doesn't happen any more with my friends, because I just think "fuck this, I don't care what they think of me". Unfortunately, when it comes to my boyfriend, I DO care what he thinks of me & my looks. I used to blush a lot with him too but luckily that has got better, as I got to know him better and he never made a remark about it. But it's still not completely gone, especially in new situations: family dinners, spending an evening out with his friends,...
When I'm alone talking to his friends, I'm at ease, but when he joins the conversation, I'm immediately a bit nervous.

I plan on continuing to work on my blushing problem, it has a lot do with self-confidence too, and the longer I'm with him, the more comfortable I am. I probably should talk to him about it, but I don't really feel comfortable talking about it to anyone I know (did talk to a therapist, didn't mind that :)). I just don't want to be reminded of it by a friend who I confided in long after the problem is gone/mostly gone.
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I am a mess and I'm still struggling with my confidence&gt;have trouble with my blushing
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