Girlfriend 1 had been living with me for 10 months towards end of our studies, decided she wanted out and turned to mutual friends that she had isolated us from during relationship. I lost my best bud and my close social circle because of her. 

Decided to suck it up and move on, got a new job however ex best bud was my colleague (I got us the job before things went down). We act civil but friendship is dead and he actively seeks to outdo me in the workplace (fair enough thats how people are). 

I get a new gf and things go well for a while although I move back to parents' to save money as new gf is long distance. She turns out to be having sex with men for money and I have a mini breakdown and in the process lose my job. 

As a guy I hate competition and feel my lack of drive to compete with those around me (my first ex, my ex friend, other men in general) costs me advancement in society. I don't consider myself a beta male (don't really give a shit about that kind of thing) but I do feel the need to push myself forward and unsure of how to resolve my life so that future relationships can blossom and grow. 

Also recently lost a long term friend due to his own life circumstances and his feeling I was being selfish & annoying due to not visiting him (I had explained I was unable due to being unemployed / financially unable to travel to see him.)

I'll be studying a Masters later this year and am just looking for thoughts/suggestions on my situation and how I can look to forge meaningful relationships going forward with people who will reciprocate the love/loyalty I am capable of.

Thanks!
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Friends and gf's leave/mutual friends leave/job gone, what do I
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Girlfriend 1 had been living with me for 10 months towards end of our studies, decided she wanted out and turned to mutual friends that she had isolated us from during relationship. I lost my best bud and my close social circle because of her. 

Decided to suck it up and move on, got a new job however ex best bud was my colleague (I got us the job before things went down). We act civil but friendship is dead and he actively seeks to outdo me in the workplace (fair enough thats how people are). 

I get a new gf and things go well for a while although I move back to parents' to save money as new gf is long distance. She turns out to be having sex with men for money and I have a mini breakdown and in the process lose my job. 

As a guy I hate competition and feel my lack of drive to compete with those around me (my first ex, my ex friend, other men in general) costs me advancement in society. I don't consider myself a beta male (don't really give a shit about that kind of thing) but I do feel the need to push myself forward and unsure of how to resolve my life so that future relationships can blossom and grow. 

Also recently lost a long term friend due to his own life circumstances and his feeling I was being selfish & annoying due to not visiting him (I had explained I was unable due to being unemployed / financially unable to travel to see him.)

I'll be studying a Masters later this year and am just looking for thoughts/suggestions on my situation and how I can look to forge meaningful relationships going forward with people who will reciprocate the love/loyalty I am capable of.

Thanks!
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Just looking for thoughts/suggestions on my situation and how I
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