I have been dating my SO for several months now and we both love each other very much. We both know what we want and it's headed in the direction of wanting to spend our lives together after we give living together some time.

With that being said, this past week or two I have not been myself. I've allowed my insecurities and jealousy to get the best of me, and I have imposed them on my SO and her friendships with her male friends. Despite reassurance that I'm the only one for her, her unwavering dedication, and her complete and total faithfulness, I still managed to act like OAB and have caused somewhat of a divide between her and her friends.

Aside from feeling like total shit, I know that the person I've been acting like isn't me. I know that these thoughts I have had stemmed from irrational and illogical fears. I'm man enough to recognize my problem and take responsibility, but going forward, I don't know what to do about it.

We had a long talk and she reassured me that she still wants nobody but me. She loves me unconditionally, even for my faults. I feel so blessed to have her in my life and I made that clear. Despite that, actions speak louder than words and I feel like I have failed her. I have not been the boyfriend that she needed, yet she has been everything for me.
I know I can do so much better, because I know I can be the man she fell in love with, and whatever this temporary guise that has taken ahold of me has done to our relationship, I am determined to not let it happen again.

I almost lost one of the people I care about most in life and I don't want to have to relive that experience.

Reddit, is there anything I can do? Anything I can read?
Anything I should say? Any way I can act?

This is a LDR. Thank you.
user
I fucked up with my LDR girlfriend and I want to fix it. I love her to pieces and want to do whatever it takes to show her I'm sorry and make it right.
assistant
I have been dating my SO for several months now and we both love each other very much. We both know what we want and it's headed in the direction of wanting to spend our lives together after we give living together some time.

With that being said, this past week or two I have not been myself. I've allowed my insecurities and jealousy to get the best of me, and I have imposed them on my SO and her friendships with her male friends. Despite reassurance that I'm the only one for her, her unwavering dedication, and her complete and total faithfulness, I still managed to act like OAB and have caused somewhat of a divide between her and her friends.

Aside from feeling like total shit, I know that the person I've been acting like isn't me. I know that these thoughts I have had stemmed from irrational and illogical fears. I'm man enough to recognize my problem and take responsibility, but going forward, I don't know what to do about it.

We had a long talk and she reassured me that she still wants nobody but me. She loves me unconditionally, even for my faults. I feel so blessed to have her in my life and I made that clear. Despite that, actions speak louder than words and I feel like I have failed her. I have not been the boyfriend that she needed, yet she has been everything for me.
I know I can do so much better, because I know I can be the man she fell in love with, and whatever this temporary guise that has taken ahold of me has done to our relationship, I am determined to not let it happen again.

I almost lost one of the people I care about most in life and I don't want to have to relive that experience.

Reddit, is there anything I can do? Anything I can read?
Anything I should say? Any way I can act?

This is a LDR. Thank you.
user
I fucked up. I acted like a dick and helped to cause a rift between her and her friends. She still loves me and I am determined to fix it. I know I can let it go
assistant