So like the title says, my father kind of started a tradition of writing these beautiful, heartfelt letters to everyone on Christmas, and everyone joined in (maybe for revenge for making us cry on Christmas so many times).  
I can never remember having any trouble writing those letters before, since I love my family dearly and I usually look forward to this sanctioned event where I can be gushy and emotional and all-around gross.  But when I sat down to write them last night, nothing came out except a few lines that honestly read more like a cry for help than anything.  

I haven't had the best year. I moved across the country for what I thought was the love of my life...that didn't work out so well.  We had a horrible breakup, and I drove back home with my tail between my legs.  Now I have no job, no boyfriend, and a large part of me is ashamed on a daily basis--I feel like a failure.  

I love my family and they've gone above and beyond for me through this time.  I just can't think of anything hopeful or uplifting to say, since my emotions have been ranging lately from sad to sadder.  

I know I'll only feel worse if I walk out there without the letters.  Should I just be up front and tell them?  Or just make a bunch of stuff up?  How can I do this without being a huge Christmas buzzkill?
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Every Christmas my family writes each other wonderful heartfelt letters. Everything I try to write comes out horrifically
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So like the title says, my father kind of started a tradition of writing these beautiful, heartfelt letters to everyone on Christmas, and everyone joined in (maybe for revenge for making us cry on Christmas so many times).  
I can never remember having any trouble writing those letters before, since I love my family dearly and I usually look forward to this sanctioned event where I can be gushy and emotional and all-around gross.  But when I sat down to write them last night, nothing came out except a few lines that honestly read more like a cry for help than anything.  

I haven't had the best year. I moved across the country for what I thought was the love of my life...that didn't work out so well.  We had a horrible breakup, and I drove back home with my tail between my legs.  Now I have no job, no boyfriend, and a large part of me is ashamed on a daily basis--I feel like a failure.  

I love my family and they've gone above and beyond for me through this time.  I just can't think of anything hopeful or uplifting to say, since my emotions have been ranging lately from sad to sadder.  

I know I'll only feel worse if I walk out there without the letters.  Should I just be up front and tell them?  Or just make a bunch of stuff up?  How can I do this without being a huge Christmas buzzkill?
user
I love my family and I don't know how to write a letter for them.
assistant