So I'm not the kind of person to get infatuated with someone, or at least I thought I wasn't. I've been very indifferent and distant most of my life - with relationships (only had 1, with a girl), with friends, with family, etc. I have close friends but I've always needed space and can't hang out with the same person for extended periods. I'm bi but leaning towards gay, but have never felt anything emotional for another guy (physical for as long as I can remember), and I've felt emotional but not really physical for girls (even my ex). So anyway, I used to be sickened by people who feel the way I do now and never understood it...

But, for the last few weeks, there's this dude at my work that I just can't stop thinking about. This might partly be platonic because all my friends have been lame lately (we're getting into different things since graduating) and this guy seems like a bro and is down for whatever. He's good looking too and I don't know him super well as I only met him like 2 months ago, but most of the attraction is emotional. I'm usually indifferent with replies to text messages or trying to impress people, but this guy I always try to phrase things right and over analyze all of his answers/what he does/says. And I'm not a phone talking or hanging for extended periods of time kind of person at all, at alllllllll, but that's really what I want to do... just talk to this guy for hours, hang, have some beers, party. I also wouldn't mind anything physical, but I sort of want that less, which is another anomaly since I usually want all physical none of the other stuff. 

Also, I recognize that these feelings are unhealthy. I'm a really emotionally stable person usually but god damn has my brain been messed up lately because of this. Even writing this I feel like a 13 year old girl (I'm 25 and male btw). To add to the insanity he recently started seeing a girl and I'm jealous lol. What the heck.

   
So yeah
user
I'm not the kind of person to get attached to people but I can't stop thinking about this guy. I want to
assistant
So I'm not the kind of person to get infatuated with someone, or at least I thought I wasn't. I've been very indifferent and distant most of my life - with relationships (only had 1, with a girl), with friends, with family, etc. I have close friends but I've always needed space and can't hang out with the same person for extended periods. I'm bi but leaning towards gay, but have never felt anything emotional for another guy (physical for as long as I can remember), and I've felt emotional but not really physical for girls (even my ex). So anyway, I used to be sickened by people who feel the way I do now and never understood it...

But, for the last few weeks, there's this dude at my work that I just can't stop thinking about. This might partly be platonic because all my friends have been lame lately (we're getting into different things since graduating) and this guy seems like a bro and is down for whatever. He's good looking too and I don't know him super well as I only met him like 2 months ago, but most of the attraction is emotional. I'm usually indifferent with replies to text messages or trying to impress people, but this guy I always try to phrase things right and over analyze all of his answers/what he does/says. And I'm not a phone talking or hanging for extended periods of time kind of person at all, at alllllllll, but that's really what I want to do... just talk to this guy for hours, hang, have some beers, party. I also wouldn't mind anything physical, but I sort of want that less, which is another anomaly since I usually want all physical none of the other stuff. 

Also, I recognize that these feelings are unhealthy. I'm a really emotionally stable person usually but god damn has my brain been messed up lately because of this. Even writing this I feel like a 13 year old girl (I'm 25 and male btw). To add to the insanity he recently started seeing a girl and I'm jealous lol. What the heck.

   
So yeah
user
I hate people, but I'm obsessed with this one person I barely know and I can't even explain why.
assistant