Well I've been working out and eating okay-ish (still have bad days a-plenty) and I've lost 20lbs in the last 2 months, 26lbs overall (Was 300lbs, now 274lbs, 17, F, 5'11") but I can't see any change.

All I see is a fat, useless blob who still eats too many cookies and can't put down the coke to save her life. I hit rock bottom when I had to search for a knee brace online (genetically weak knees due to Ehlers Danlos hypermobility of joints) and I would only just fit in the biggest size of the only brace that wasn't hideously expensive. I cried for an hour straight. 

There's only one change I can see, which is that I can see my collarbone a bit now in the middle, but other than that, just an ugly, fat, stupid, overeating, under-exercising blob. I feel like I'm wasting my hours in the gym because my thighs are exactly the same size, I'm the same dress size, and I look the same. Other people say the difference is obvious, but to me, I'm the same fatass blob I always was.

I even took a picture, looked at it and just said- "yep, not even the tiniest bit smaller, just a big fat blob with unreal thigh dimensions (super big) I feel like I just want to cry for days, like I want to give up and retreat to bed. Anyone able to relate?
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I'm fat, think I'm not doing anything wrong, just
assistant
Well I've been working out and eating okay-ish (still have bad days a-plenty) and I've lost 20lbs in the last 2 months, 26lbs overall (Was 300lbs, now 274lbs, 17, F, 5'11") but I can't see any change.

All I see is a fat, useless blob who still eats too many cookies and can't put down the coke to save her life. I hit rock bottom when I had to search for a knee brace online (genetically weak knees due to Ehlers Danlos hypermobility of joints) and I would only just fit in the biggest size of the only brace that wasn't hideously expensive. I cried for an hour straight. 

There's only one change I can see, which is that I can see my collarbone a bit now in the middle, but other than that, just an ugly, fat, stupid, overeating, under-exercising blob. I feel like I'm wasting my hours in the gym because my thighs are exactly the same size, I'm the same dress size, and I look the same. Other people say the difference is obvious, but to me, I'm the same fatass blob I always was.

I even took a picture, looked at it and just said- "yep, not even the tiniest bit smaller, just a big fat blob with unreal thigh dimensions (super big) I feel like I just want to cry for days, like I want to give up and retreat to bed. Anyone able to relate?
user
I'm a fat blob, no change. Looking like a
assistant