Backstory:

  Last year (and the year previous) I was in love and dating an amazing girl, there was a lot of B/S that happened, (I moved to Ohio for a week from the south and returned) that caused a downward spiral into us just fighting. She played/plays wow, and ignored me all the time and we tried patching things numerous times. Then I find out she was cheating on me with a guy she met on wow (lame i know) A bunch of shit happened that made me go pretty much catatonic/depressed to the point where I find daily life a year later a horrible task.

I am currently dating a girl, but it feels I am trying to mold her into who/what my ex was to me, I break down constantly and she will have to administer klonopin as I start to have hyperventilation issues.

Currently I am sitting at work freaking out, on the verge or a nervous breakdown...I found her facebook, I messaged her email with a long thought out message asking to talk politely about the situation to maybe give me some closure but then I sent like 3 more emails due to no response...I cannot function reddit, when I freak out I think about hurting myself horribly...im 25...i am well adjusted socially, yet at night+driving home+driving to work+pretty much randomly all the time I burst into tears and begin a full blown panic attack that crushes my soul...It feels like nothing will ever be the same...I dont want to live without her...I need help...I know I should go to therapy..I know I should seek help..but I've tried and my work's health insurance doesnt cover it. How can I get over this...my usual method is to just bottle it up and cloud my head with as much meaningless bullshit as possible from reading the net until I hit a spot or see an old photo of us that a friend has on facebook....last night I had a major breakdown to where my current SO (who is amazingly understanding) forced a klonopin into my mouth...
user
Been in a serious relationship for a year, had a major breakdown after a breakup, don't know how to handle this again, it feels hopeless.
assistant
Backstory:

  Last year (and the year previous) I was in love and dating an amazing girl, there was a lot of B/S that happened, (I moved to Ohio for a week from the south and returned) that caused a downward spiral into us just fighting. She played/plays wow, and ignored me all the time and we tried patching things numerous times. Then I find out she was cheating on me with a guy she met on wow (lame i know) A bunch of shit happened that made me go pretty much catatonic/depressed to the point where I find daily life a year later a horrible task.

I am currently dating a girl, but it feels I am trying to mold her into who/what my ex was to me, I break down constantly and she will have to administer klonopin as I start to have hyperventilation issues.

Currently I am sitting at work freaking out, on the verge or a nervous breakdown...I found her facebook, I messaged her email with a long thought out message asking to talk politely about the situation to maybe give me some closure but then I sent like 3 more emails due to no response...I cannot function reddit, when I freak out I think about hurting myself horribly...im 25...i am well adjusted socially, yet at night+driving home+driving to work+pretty much randomly all the time I burst into tears and begin a full blown panic attack that crushes my soul...It feels like nothing will ever be the same...I dont want to live without her...I need help...I know I should go to therapy..I know I should seek help..but I've tried and my work's health insurance doesnt cover it. How can I get over this...my usual method is to just bottle it up and cloud my head with as much meaningless bullshit as possible from reading the net until I hit a spot or see an old photo of us that a friend has on facebook....last night I had a major breakdown to where my current SO (who is amazingly understanding) forced a klonopin into my mouth...
user
I have depression, I'm now dating a girl (who I am in love with and I'm in love with) but I am having a breakdown/panic attack everytime I see her face, how can I get over this?**
assistant