Ok so little back story first. I began college as a physics major. Everything was going fine until I ran into calculus. I failed calculus my first time around. I perfectly understood how to do derivatives and integrals and the stuff they taught in the later half of calculus 1. However, the parts of the class I could never get my head around were the supposed "basic" calculus parts such as epsilon-delta definition. Despite my lack of understanding in calculus I retook cal 1 and again got a very low D (passing but just barely) however I took physics at this same time (which was all calculus based physics) and I got a high A in that class. 

Because of the situation with math I decided to switch my major to sociology and anthropology. I made this decision because I knew that since the math would only get increasingly harder and without making very high grades in all my future classes my GPA would never recover enough to get into grad school, which was my goal. 

Ever since I switched my major I can't watch any science shows on TV without getting very sad and sometimes mildly depressed because I know that now I won't ever be in that field of research or doing anything substantial towards forwarding science. Since I was a freshman in High School I've wanted to do research in physics and now that dream is unreachable. 

So I come to reddit today to ask if anyone has any suggestions on how I can continue to further my knowledge and understanding of physics on my own time so I can at least still get some of the fulfillment I used to and hopefully quell the sadness I feel inside. (sorry if this post sounds really depressing. I'm very happy with my new major and future career choice)
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I'm a physics major, I still want to be a physicist but I don't know how to improve my understanding and knowledge in physics.
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Ok so little back story first. I began college as a physics major. Everything was going fine until I ran into calculus. I failed calculus my first time around. I perfectly understood how to do derivatives and integrals and the stuff they taught in the later half of calculus 1. However, the parts of the class I could never get my head around were the supposed "basic" calculus parts such as epsilon-delta definition. Despite my lack of understanding in calculus I retook cal 1 and again got a very low D (passing but just barely) however I took physics at this same time (which was all calculus based physics) and I got a high A in that class. 

Because of the situation with math I decided to switch my major to sociology and anthropology. I made this decision because I knew that since the math would only get increasingly harder and without making very high grades in all my future classes my GPA would never recover enough to get into grad school, which was my goal. 

Ever since I switched my major I can't watch any science shows on TV without getting very sad and sometimes mildly depressed because I know that now I won't ever be in that field of research or doing anything substantial towards forwarding science. Since I was a freshman in High School I've wanted to do research in physics and now that dream is unreachable. 

So I come to reddit today to ask if anyone has any suggestions on how I can continue to further my knowledge and understanding of physics on my own time so I can at least still get some of the fulfillment I used to and hopefully quell the sadness I feel inside. (sorry if this post sounds really depressing. I'm very happy with my new major and future career choice)
user
I'm a physics major that now wants to switch fields because of math. I want to further my knowledge of physics on my own time but I'm afraid because of my high GPA and the fact that I'm a physics major I will never be able to get into grad school or pursue a career in physics.
assistant