Hi Reddit, I've only had 3 or so marijuana experiences, all peer-pressured, and it feels like these have been detrimental to my mental health.

The first time was when I was 16 and my 'best friend' (who started hanging out with a bunch of lowlifes) pressured me into eating a weed brownie. I tripped so extremely hard and did not like it at all. I immediately ended that friendship, but for months it left me with anxiety... I had never been high before and that feeling of looping-memory and being totally unable to control my consciousness left me self-diagnosing myself (horrible thing to do) and continually questioning my mental health by trying to discern what my mind was like before I tried marijuana, and what it is like after. 

Well, that went away for a few years, and I'm now 23. A little over a month ago I was at a party and my friends girlfriend shoved a weed cookie into my mouth when we were drunk, I ate it, and again I had another bad trip. Since then, the same questions have preoccupied my mind and it's getting frustratingly annoying and causing me to become depressed. I find myself constantly questioning how I felt before I tried weed, and it causes me to overthink existence, consciousness, life, etc. I end up scaring myself by questioning whether I triggered some sort of mental illness, and this has been nothing but bad on my daily life. For instance, even when I'm having a good time with friends, it will dawn on me to question why nobody else I'm with are experiencing these negative thoughts! I have no motivation to do the things I love doing and I constantly just want to sleep.

Overall it's a hard feeling to explain... to me it feels like the anxiety you feel when you realize what death is and how it is inevitable. I just want to shake all the bad thoughts and just live my life and I realize that this is all being fabricated in my head. Any advice on how to shake it? Seriously replies appreciated :)
user
I get anxiety from weed for no reason and its causing me to become depressed.
assistant
Hi Reddit, I've only had 3 or so marijuana experiences, all peer-pressured, and it feels like these have been detrimental to my mental health.

The first time was when I was 16 and my 'best friend' (who started hanging out with a bunch of lowlifes) pressured me into eating a weed brownie. I tripped so extremely hard and did not like it at all. I immediately ended that friendship, but for months it left me with anxiety... I had never been high before and that feeling of looping-memory and being totally unable to control my consciousness left me self-diagnosing myself (horrible thing to do) and continually questioning my mental health by trying to discern what my mind was like before I tried marijuana, and what it is like after. 

Well, that went away for a few years, and I'm now 23. A little over a month ago I was at a party and my friends girlfriend shoved a weed cookie into my mouth when we were drunk, I ate it, and again I had another bad trip. Since then, the same questions have preoccupied my mind and it's getting frustratingly annoying and causing me to become depressed. I find myself constantly questioning how I felt before I tried weed, and it causes me to overthink existence, consciousness, life, etc. I end up scaring myself by questioning whether I triggered some sort of mental illness, and this has been nothing but bad on my daily life. For instance, even when I'm having a good time with friends, it will dawn on me to question why nobody else I'm with are experiencing these negative thoughts! I have no motivation to do the things I love doing and I constantly just want to sleep.

Overall it's a hard feeling to explain... to me it feels like the anxiety you feel when you realize what death is and how it is inevitable. I just want to shake all the bad thoughts and just live my life and I realize that this is all being fabricated in my head. Any advice on how to shake it? Seriously replies appreciated :)
user
I've had a lot of bad trips eating weed brownies, cookies, and mods. I don't know how to shake the anxiety and kids, and I don't want to be a stoner with anxiety
assistant