Hi guys, I've got a question for you all.

As my 1 year and about a half relationship with my SO trucks on, I increasingly feel like I come second to his computer and gun hobbies. I understand that as a guy he definitely feels the urge to do his own thing every once in awhile, and as an introverted person myself I feel the same way. Doing our own separate things is no bother to me at all. But constantly I am having to tell him to put his iphone away, or to stop playing an internet game, or just lay down with me without any other distractions in order to get some sufficient "me and him" time. 

Yesterday he stayed up all night playing LoL on the computer which I didn't mind while I watched some Rupual then fell asleep. Today, he gets up and gets right back on the computer which I STILL didn't mind as I wanted to sleep in. When I finally get up I ask for some "us" time and his response is "But I'm watching a youtube video"

By that point I'm feeling dejected, unwanted, unloved, and he has an attitude which probably stems from the fact that I did call him out on his computer usage. But instead of actually talking with me he stayed quiet and I decided to just leave since he feels the need to watch this youtube video so badly. 

I wouldn't be upset if this didn't happen on a daily basis, but whether it's us going to sleep, hanging out with friends, even after sex sometimes he has a compulsive need to be on the computer or to be tinkering with his guns. 

I'm so tired of feeling second to these objects and I've noticed not only has my self esteem plummeted, but I feel like the more he engages with these objects the more I push him with my concerns and doubts. He tells me everyday that he loves me, and whenever I hint at a breakup he seems dejected and against it at all cost. But his actions are never the same as the words he spouts and I am reaching my limits. I am just feeling so unwanted.
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Hi guys, I've got a question for you all.

As my 1 year and about a half relationship with my SO trucks on, I increasingly feel like I come second to his computer and gun hobbies. I understand that as a guy he definitely feels the urge to do his own thing every once in awhile, and as an introverted person myself I feel the same way. Doing our own separate things is no bother to me at all. But constantly I am having to tell him to put his iphone away, or to stop playing an internet game, or just lay down with me without any other distractions in order to get some sufficient "me and him" time. 

Yesterday he stayed up all night playing LoL on the computer which I didn't mind while I watched some Rupual then fell asleep. Today, he gets up and gets right back on the computer which I STILL didn't mind as I wanted to sleep in. When I finally get up I ask for some "us" time and his response is "But I'm watching a youtube video"

By that point I'm feeling dejected, unwanted, unloved, and he has an attitude which probably stems from the fact that I did call him out on his computer usage. But instead of actually talking with me he stayed quiet and I decided to just leave since he feels the need to watch this youtube video so badly. 

I wouldn't be upset if this didn't happen on a daily basis, but whether it's us going to sleep, hanging out with friends, even after sex sometimes he has a compulsive need to be on the computer or to be tinkering with his guns. 

I'm so tired of feeling second to these objects and I've noticed not only has my self esteem plummeted, but I feel like the more he engages with these objects the more I push him with my concerns and doubts. He tells me everyday that he loves me, and whenever I hint at a breakup he seems dejected and against it at all cost. But his actions are never the same as the words he spouts and I am reaching my limits. I am just feeling so unwanted.
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