Pretty much all my life I've been asocial; being around people just makes me intensely uncomfortable and I feel the need to get away. I think people are generally evil and manipulative and once you let your guard down they will take advantage of you. 

Growing up, I avoided school constantly and would just sit at home and go months without saying anything. I developed bad mental health issues like anorexia, depression and social anxiety. There is a large element of paranoia in there, to the point that I think anyone who looks at me when I'm walking down the street wants to hurt me and can see how evil I am/all the bad things I've done by the look in my eyes.

I've been told I'm attractive, and attractive enough that it gets attention when I'm out, but I hate it. I always assume people are taking the piss, when they could simply be looking at me, and I've sometimes lashed out inappropriately because I get so angry.

There is a need for intimacy there, but I've got so many defences and I'm so isolated that no one can really get through to me.

I think living this way is kind of miserable and I realise that I can only really start living once I participate in society but honestly have no idea what to do. Yes, I'm in therapy, but it doesn't really help.
Any ideas?
user
I don't like people and have no social skills. I can't really explain why but I know I don't like them. Any ideas
assistant
Pretty much all my life I've been asocial; being around people just makes me intensely uncomfortable and I feel the need to get away. I think people are generally evil and manipulative and once you let your guard down they will take advantage of you. 

Growing up, I avoided school constantly and would just sit at home and go months without saying anything. I developed bad mental health issues like anorexia, depression and social anxiety. There is a large element of paranoia in there, to the point that I think anyone who looks at me when I'm walking down the street wants to hurt me and can see how evil I am/all the bad things I've done by the look in my eyes.

I've been told I'm attractive, and attractive enough that it gets attention when I'm out, but I hate it. I always assume people are taking the piss, when they could simply be looking at me, and I've sometimes lashed out inappropriately because I get so angry.

There is a need for intimacy there, but I've got so many defences and I'm so isolated that no one can really get through to me.

I think living this way is kind of miserable and I realise that I can only really start living once I participate in society but honestly have no idea what to do. Yes, I'm in therapy, but it doesn't really help.
Any ideas?
user
I have no social skills and live in a world where I can't get close to anyone. What can I do to start
assistant