Since I was young, I've imagined scenarios where I get hurt, be it emotionally or physically, while people basically react to it.  I think about these scenarios so constantly I'm starting to think it should be called fantasizing. I go as far as imagining myself finding my SO cheating on me, and I just think about all the different ways I would react to it. At this point I constantly think about how I would be killed or how I would kill myself and how people would react to it. 

I have a good family life, and my relationship with my SO is okay. I have great friends. Nothing is really wrong with my life, but I did just get over a few months of depression(?) during which I was cutting and constantly thinking of suicide.  

This isn't normal, right? Why am I like this? How can I stop myself from these thoughts?
user
I need help thinking of
assistant
Since I was young, I've imagined scenarios where I get hurt, be it emotionally or physically, while people basically react to it.  I think about these scenarios so constantly I'm starting to think it should be called fantasizing. I go as far as imagining myself finding my SO cheating on me, and I just think about all the different ways I would react to it. At this point I constantly think about how I would be killed or how I would kill myself and how people would react to it. 

I have a good family life, and my relationship with my SO is okay. I have great friends. Nothing is really wrong with my life, but I did just get over a few months of depression(?) during which I was cutting and constantly thinking of suicide.  

This isn't normal, right? Why am I like this? How can I stop myself from these thoughts?
user
I don't think about what
assistant