I'm in the middle of medical training.  I suffer from a history of depression and anxiety (no meds, no therapy) and am a type A personality to the extreme.  

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Right now we've got a minor reprieve for the holidays, but I begin again soon.  A few months into it I managed to get overwhelmed by all my work and had four really bad crying spells.  I mean like, full on ugly cry, hyperventilating, inconsolable, choking level crying.  It was pretty much an "I'm completely overwhelmed and can't escape this situation" triggered reaction.  I also did not feel supported by my immediate supervisor, which I'm sure contributed (I know, I need to grow a thicker skin).  I then switched medical settings (natural progression of the teaching, not forced) and had no issues in this new setting, but my embarrassment over the situation before is lingering.

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I'll soon be in a new setting surrounded by people who know about and/or witnessed my previous spells (some of who act quite juvenile and may comment on it).  I am mortified and ruminating on the shame of being seen as weak and unprofessional and unstable.  If I had my way I'd simply drop all contact and never see them again, but obviously this is not feasible.  I have my to finish this to ever get to the career I want.

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Any words of wisdom or techniques or solutions to quash some of these feelings?  They're eating at me quite badly the closer the new period gets.
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I'm in the middle of medical training.  I suffer from a history of depression and anxiety (no meds, no therapy) and am a type A personality to the extreme.  

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Right now we've got a minor reprieve for the holidays, but I begin again soon.  A few months into it I managed to get overwhelmed by all my work and had four really bad crying spells.  I mean like, full on ugly cry, hyperventilating, inconsolable, choking level crying.  It was pretty much an "I'm completely overwhelmed and can't escape this situation" triggered reaction.  I also did not feel supported by my immediate supervisor, which I'm sure contributed (I know, I need to grow a thicker skin).  I then switched medical settings (natural progression of the teaching, not forced) and had no issues in this new setting, but my embarrassment over the situation before is lingering.

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I'll soon be in a new setting surrounded by people who know about and/or witnessed my previous spells (some of who act quite juvenile and may comment on it).  I am mortified and ruminating on the shame of being seen as weak and unprofessional and unstable.  If I had my way I'd simply drop all contact and never see them again, but obviously this is not feasible.  I have my to finish this to ever get to the career I want.

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Any words of wisdom or techniques or solutions to quash some of these feelings?  They're eating at me quite badly the closer the new period gets.
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