He's been rightfully frustrated, I must admit.  I feel like I could make excuses as to why I don't want to do anything (and some I feel would be legitimate, even friends and family have backed me up that my stressors are legitimate). It would be fair to say I'm depressed, though I know I have much to be grateful for.

While there are things I wish we could change about our situation (his parents living with us is very stressful, but their situation is complicated, so asking them to leave is almost impossible), I know he makes an honest effort to do what he can to alleviate some stress from my life.

I'm just having a very difficult time finding the motivation to accomplish goals, like losing weight, studying, keeping a good routine (laundry, etc.) I honestly feel like I just want to go on the internet, or sleep. I've been in counseling since May, which has helped to a degree, but not as much as we'd both like. 

He's very frustrated that I haven't met my weightloss goal after 4 years (I have lost 20 lbs, and haven't gained it back, but I'm going up and down with the last 30), and that I procrastinate studying even though I know better.  I get his frustration, I really do.  We've had several talks, and after each one, I do better for a bit.

But it always ends up back at square one. I wonder if part of the reason I'm holding back, is my frustration regarding our circumstance that I cannot change (i.e. his parents living with us, and his family's involvement in our lives). Sure, if that's the case, that's one petty excuse. But I just don't know what else it could be.

I find I can accomplish at least one small task a day (whether it's completing an assignment, or folding the laundry), but anything past that one small task, and I just feel tired.  I can't explain it, and I hate it. I wish it was as easy as snapping my fingers, and saying, "Wake up, self, pull yourself together!"

Any advice?
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He's been rightfully frustrated, I must admit.  I feel like I could make excuses as to why I don't want to do anything (and some I feel would be legitimate, even friends and family have backed me up that my stressors are legitimate). It would be fair to say I'm depressed, though I know I have much to be grateful for.

While there are things I wish we could change about our situation (his parents living with us is very stressful, but their situation is complicated, so asking them to leave is almost impossible), I know he makes an honest effort to do what he can to alleviate some stress from my life.

I'm just having a very difficult time finding the motivation to accomplish goals, like losing weight, studying, keeping a good routine (laundry, etc.) I honestly feel like I just want to go on the internet, or sleep. I've been in counseling since May, which has helped to a degree, but not as much as we'd both like. 

He's very frustrated that I haven't met my weightloss goal after 4 years (I have lost 20 lbs, and haven't gained it back, but I'm going up and down with the last 30), and that I procrastinate studying even though I know better.  I get his frustration, I really do.  We've had several talks, and after each one, I do better for a bit.

But it always ends up back at square one. I wonder if part of the reason I'm holding back, is my frustration regarding our circumstance that I cannot change (i.e. his parents living with us, and his family's involvement in our lives). Sure, if that's the case, that's one petty excuse. But I just don't know what else it could be.

I find I can accomplish at least one small task a day (whether it's completing an assignment, or folding the laundry), but anything past that one small task, and I just feel tired.  I can't explain it, and I hate it. I wish it was as easy as snapping my fingers, and saying, "Wake up, self, pull yourself together!"

Any advice?
user
I'm feeling guilty about the way I've been feeling lately because
assistant