I got academically suspended the fall 2012 semester from my university. The thing is for the duration of my college career I was filled with self resentment and absolutely sure I was depressed.  I stopped talking to my old friends , because I was too ashamed to tell them I wasn't doing well and  haven't had any real friends since 2010 .  It's not that I couldn't get along well with people or my classmates, I think I was too ashamed of myself to become friends with anyone for a while.

Well I made some friends again after joining the ultimate frisbee team. Instead of disappearing  I told them  a not very detailed version of the truth. I told them that "I did bad last semester and wasn't attending the university at the time so I couldn't play with them at tournaments, but would be returning the fall semester". I kept attending practices for like 3 months this year.

Well I'm not returning the fall semester, and there is one friend I'd like to keep.  Who unknowingly helped me stay sane these last few months just by inviting me to play volleyball at the university.
I'm going to be seeing a lot of these people all summer from playing in the ultimate leagues here. 

Before I was paralyzed by fear of finding myself a failure so much so that I literally failed out of college. I found a fuel source to make real change in my life, it's not about keeping these friends, I understand that I might lose them although I'd prefer not to. My motivation source is coming from just thinking how beautiful life is and that it really isn't worth it to live it afraid to fail the entire time.
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I've had a bad semester in college and have no real friends. I
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I got academically suspended the fall 2012 semester from my university. The thing is for the duration of my college career I was filled with self resentment and absolutely sure I was depressed.  I stopped talking to my old friends , because I was too ashamed to tell them I wasn't doing well and  haven't had any real friends since 2010 .  It's not that I couldn't get along well with people or my classmates, I think I was too ashamed of myself to become friends with anyone for a while.

Well I made some friends again after joining the ultimate frisbee team. Instead of disappearing  I told them  a not very detailed version of the truth. I told them that "I did bad last semester and wasn't attending the university at the time so I couldn't play with them at tournaments, but would be returning the fall semester". I kept attending practices for like 3 months this year.

Well I'm not returning the fall semester, and there is one friend I'd like to keep.  Who unknowingly helped me stay sane these last few months just by inviting me to play volleyball at the university.
I'm going to be seeing a lot of these people all summer from playing in the ultimate leagues here. 

Before I was paralyzed by fear of finding myself a failure so much so that I literally failed out of college. I found a fuel source to make real change in my life, it's not about keeping these friends, I understand that I might lose them although I'd prefer not to. My motivation source is coming from just thinking how beautiful life is and that it really isn't worth it to live it afraid to fail the entire time.
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I got academically suspended, and now I'm looking for a way to keep
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