I have been with my girlfriend for a year and a half. We are one month into living together for the first time.

I have been dealing with depression for a while now and my girlfriend knows about it. Durring some recent therapy I've started to uncover some severe childhood trauma that I had covered up a long time ago. I talked to my girlfriend about this and a suicide attempt I made three months ago. After three days of chaotic back and forth we decided I needed to be on my own to grow and heal and stop my chain of relying on women in my life to fill a gap (I've had 4 log term relationships in the last ten years and they were one after another with almost no down time between them)

The problem is how much I feel like a scumbag now. Obviously her parents hate me and think she should sue me for move costs when we break our lease. I'm so desperate to be mentally well but I feel like I'm a bad person now. I need to hear from complete strangers if I'm doing the right thing. Sorry this was so long.
user
I'm causing an expensive and painful breakup but doing it to fix my long standing mental problems.
assistant
I have been with my girlfriend for a year and a half. We are one month into living together for the first time.

I have been dealing with depression for a while now and my girlfriend knows about it. Durring some recent therapy I've started to uncover some severe childhood trauma that I had covered up a long time ago. I talked to my girlfriend about this and a suicide attempt I made three months ago. After three days of chaotic back and forth we decided I needed to be on my own to grow and heal and stop my chain of relying on women in my life to fill a gap (I've had 4 log term relationships in the last ten years and they were one after another with almost no down time between them)

The problem is how much I feel like a scumbag now. Obviously her parents hate me and think she should sue me for move costs when we break our lease. I'm so desperate to be mentally well but I feel like I'm a bad person now. I need to hear from complete strangers if I'm doing the right thing. Sorry this was so long.
user
I'm a scumbag and have no idea how to deal with it. How do I break up
assistant