(obvious new account is obvious)

So I am an 22-year old male. I have some legitimate struggles with a fairly serious mental illness (very strongly bipolar) but, in spite of that, I'm a pretty popular guy. I guess I'm handsome and I am in really good shape from running cross country and lifting my entire adult life. As far as previous relations go, I've had four "serious" (i.e. 6 months+ ) and a bevy of short term flings. Lately though, I've been derailed by one girl. She is 23, home permanently from school in Cali and is a regular fixture in my life these last 6 or 7 months. I feel like a relationship is out of the question (serious love triangle hooooboy situation developing) but I desire her **incredibly** strongly. Not just in the shallow physical sense but in that immense way where you just have to be around that person. I flirt like friends do sometimes, she reciprocates. Nothing goes further than that until this morning. Nothing *actually* happened but we had a conversation where it finally clicked that I really like her and that, as it works out, she views me as a friend.
I've friend zoned myself for the first time in my adult life and I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking confused by what to do with myself. This feels like junior high all over again
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I'm a 22-year old
assistant
(obvious new account is obvious)

So I am an 22-year old male. I have some legitimate struggles with a fairly serious mental illness (very strongly bipolar) but, in spite of that, I'm a pretty popular guy. I guess I'm handsome and I am in really good shape from running cross country and lifting my entire adult life. As far as previous relations go, I've had four "serious" (i.e. 6 months+ ) and a bevy of short term flings. Lately though, I've been derailed by one girl. She is 23, home permanently from school in Cali and is a regular fixture in my life these last 6 or 7 months. I feel like a relationship is out of the question (serious love triangle hooooboy situation developing) but I desire her **incredibly** strongly. Not just in the shallow physical sense but in that immense way where you just have to be around that person. I flirt like friends do sometimes, she reciprocates. Nothing goes further than that until this morning. Nothing *actually* happened but we had a conversation where it finally clicked that I really like her and that, as it works out, she views me as a friend.
I've friend zoned myself for the first time in my adult life and I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking confused by what to do with myself. This feels like junior high all over again
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Fell in to a
assistant