So I've been single a total of one year since I was 15. I don't know and don't care if this is unhealthy or not, being alone is just not me. My relationships has lasted everywhere between 6 months and 2.5 years, and I've always found "someone better" than the last. I got broken up with four weeks ago, I'm okay now, but I feel like I won't be able to find someone like her again.

I'm happy with myself, I workout, got goals and ambitions and I'm working towards them. I see people as much as I can because I like being around other people, but I'm losing hope already. This is not normal, I am not normal, as far as I can tell. I want to be able to stand on my own, but I just don't like being alone, I feel purposeless, I want to be good FOR someone. I felt like I was put on this earth to care and love my ex, and now that I'm rejected I feel as if I've lost my purpose. 

I force myself to workout, study, work etc because that's who I am, but I'm literally dying a little each day that I don't find that special someone. Again, this is not normal, but it's a part of who I am.

What I need is hope, I need to hear that I'm still young and that I'll find someone someday, that I don't know what love really is yet, that there is hope for me. So I'm asking all of you, older than me, how long did you wait for your SO? How many failed relationships? How did you meet? Please..

Thank you for reading, and thank you even more if you reply.
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Got broken up with, I just need hope, I NEED to
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So I've been single a total of one year since I was 15. I don't know and don't care if this is unhealthy or not, being alone is just not me. My relationships has lasted everywhere between 6 months and 2.5 years, and I've always found "someone better" than the last. I got broken up with four weeks ago, I'm okay now, but I feel like I won't be able to find someone like her again.

I'm happy with myself, I workout, got goals and ambitions and I'm working towards them. I see people as much as I can because I like being around other people, but I'm losing hope already. This is not normal, I am not normal, as far as I can tell. I want to be able to stand on my own, but I just don't like being alone, I feel purposeless, I want to be good FOR someone. I felt like I was put on this earth to care and love my ex, and now that I'm rejected I feel as if I've lost my purpose. 

I force myself to workout, study, work etc because that's who I am, but I'm literally dying a little each day that I don't find that special someone. Again, this is not normal, but it's a part of who I am.

What I need is hope, I need to hear that I'm still young and that I'll find someone someday, that I don't know what love really is yet, that there is hope for me. So I'm asking all of you, older than me, how long did you wait for your SO? How many failed relationships? How did you meet? Please..

Thank you for reading, and thank you even more if you reply.
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22 years old, single for 1 year and haven't met anyone
assistant