I wanted to come here today to get help for myself and for my love. 

I know he feels bad because i was immature during my last relationship and had told him things about the other person and about it in general. (it makes him feel like he really isn't good; he's very insecure and has a low self esteem) I really hate myself for being in that relationship and telling him things about it. I don't think he can get over this seeing as how i act whenever he brings it up or feels bad about it. I just don't know what he wants when he talks about it anymore. He's holding on to this and can't seem to forgive me for it, and i really just want to move past it. It hurts him more than it hurts me. 

I haven't been a caring and loving person to him. I've lied and I've gotten mad. I've been inconsiderate, And i really don't know what to do about it. I can't seem to think of anything that would make him feel better about this, or whenever he feels bad at least. I've never had to make any one feel better. I guess I sound selfish saying that, but i really don't how to do anything like this.  

I feel like a loser having to go on reddit for help, but i have no other way of communicating with anyone. I don't know what to think about this and i just need advice. I want to fix myself, but i don't know how to approach it. I want to learn from my mistakes and change, and i don't want to be this terrible, uncaring person anymore.
user
What can i do to better myself and say to make him feel better when he needs it the most
assistant
I wanted to come here today to get help for myself and for my love. 

I know he feels bad because i was immature during my last relationship and had told him things about the other person and about it in general. (it makes him feel like he really isn't good; he's very insecure and has a low self esteem) I really hate myself for being in that relationship and telling him things about it. I don't think he can get over this seeing as how i act whenever he brings it up or feels bad about it. I just don't know what he wants when he talks about it anymore. He's holding on to this and can't seem to forgive me for it, and i really just want to move past it. It hurts him more than it hurts me. 

I haven't been a caring and loving person to him. I've lied and I've gotten mad. I've been inconsiderate, And i really don't know what to do about it. I can't seem to think of anything that would make him feel better about this, or whenever he feels bad at least. I've never had to make any one feel better. I guess I sound selfish saying that, but i really don't how to do anything like this.  

I feel like a loser having to go on reddit for help, but i have no other way of communicating with anyone. I don't know what to think about this and i just need advice. I want to fix myself, but i don't know how to approach it. I want to learn from my mistakes and change, and i don't want to be this terrible, uncaring person anymore.
user
I feel bad for hurting him since he's been dating me for 3 years. I'm very bad to him when he's told me anything about the other person and it makes him feel terrible, and it hurts him more than it hurts me. I've never been a caring and loving person to him. I've lied and gotten mad. I don't know what to do and
assistant