So, a little back story. I've always had really low self esteem. To the point where I hated myself. I was always alone until high school where a made some really good friends and we've been friends ever since. Around two years ago I started seeing a therapist for my self esteem and it has progressively gone up but still can go pretty low sometimes. 

After a year of college, I come home for the summer and start hanging out with my hs friends again (I've seen them a few times during the year) and at first everything seems OK. But one day my self esteem got really low to the point where I said I had to do something and left. Ever since then, my friends haven't contacted me and every time I ask if they want to do something, they say they're busy. A few days ago, I hung out with one of them and a different friend and they started talking about all the things they've done that I would usually be invited to. When I asked why no one told me they said they forgot. They then told me about a party later that night. Before we go my friend calls and tells another one of my hs friends and says he's bringing me. The next thing my friend says is that it'll be fine, it's too late now. Also I lost one of my friends a few months earlier after he said I was too negative. I'm wondering if something is wrong or am I simply being paranoid? Thanks for reading and sorry for my terrible writing
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ever since I've came back from college
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So, a little back story. I've always had really low self esteem. To the point where I hated myself. I was always alone until high school where a made some really good friends and we've been friends ever since. Around two years ago I started seeing a therapist for my self esteem and it has progressively gone up but still can go pretty low sometimes. 

After a year of college, I come home for the summer and start hanging out with my hs friends again (I've seen them a few times during the year) and at first everything seems OK. But one day my self esteem got really low to the point where I said I had to do something and left. Ever since then, my friends haven't contacted me and every time I ask if they want to do something, they say they're busy. A few days ago, I hung out with one of them and a different friend and they started talking about all the things they've done that I would usually be invited to. When I asked why no one told me they said they forgot. They then told me about a party later that night. Before we go my friend calls and tells another one of my hs friends and says he's bringing me. The next thing my friend says is that it'll be fine, it's too late now. Also I lost one of my friends a few months earlier after he said I was too negative. I'm wondering if something is wrong or am I simply being paranoid? Thanks for reading and sorry for my terrible writing
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I feel like all of my friends
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