Not a lot to say, really just getting things off my chest.

I feel like a complete freak. People of all shapes, sizes, looks, intelligences, pretty much all humans eventually/occasionally meet people who they date or otherwise become romantically involved with to some level...but not me. I have never had problems talking to females, that sort of "I don't know how to talk to women" thing has never been a problem...its just that NOTHING ever leads to intimacy. I have been on 3 dates in my life, all of which went perfectly amicably but none led to a second date.

The lack of relationships, followed by feeling like a freak just sort of rolls downhill and it is now basically (or has been for like 5-10 years now) a self fulfilling prophecy.

I have made efforts in the last year to change my life (gym 3-5 days/week, left my terrible job, been making an effort on dating sites, trying "new things" like yoga) but it all just feels like I am spinning my wheels.

As much as anything else the thought of a discussion about relationships or my past terrifies me. I can't imagine any women in their right minds would hear "I have never had a serious relationship" and think anything other than "I need to get away from this person".
user
I am forever alone, and I am afraid of having to face it and deal with it.
assistant
Not a lot to say, really just getting things off my chest.

I feel like a complete freak. People of all shapes, sizes, looks, intelligences, pretty much all humans eventually/occasionally meet people who they date or otherwise become romantically involved with to some level...but not me. I have never had problems talking to females, that sort of "I don't know how to talk to women" thing has never been a problem...its just that NOTHING ever leads to intimacy. I have been on 3 dates in my life, all of which went perfectly amicably but none led to a second date.

The lack of relationships, followed by feeling like a freak just sort of rolls downhill and it is now basically (or has been for like 5-10 years now) a self fulfilling prophecy.

I have made efforts in the last year to change my life (gym 3-5 days/week, left my terrible job, been making an effort on dating sites, trying "new things" like yoga) but it all just feels like I am spinning my wheels.

As much as anything else the thought of a discussion about relationships or my past terrifies me. I can't imagine any women in their right minds would hear "I have never had a serious relationship" and think anything other than "I need to get away from this person".
user
I am a freak and I have never had a serious relationship but I have never felt very well.
assistant