I went on facebook today and saw a picture of a guy I use to like with a girl sitting on his lap; you can tell they're dating, and I just instantly started bursting out crying. What was wrong with me, why didn't he like me, why am I never enough for others? I just hate myself so much, I feel unattractive, lonely, rejected, isolated, fat, and I've felt this way since I was 13. And I hate the world for being so inhumane and cruel, you realize as you get older, life is never like it is made out to be in the movies, TV, or in books. Life feels bleak and not enriching at all. 

So many of my relationships don't stick ,people come in and out of my life all the time, never sticking around. The only friends I have are guys who are nerdy and have very few friends themselves, my friendships with girls are non-existent. 

I also have allergies and it makes me feel very uncomfortable most of the time. It's a struggle trying to fight my allergies. Ugh I don't know what to do, my life fucking sucks and I hate myself so much. I am 24; had depression since 13. All I have to say is fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkk. (pardon my language)

Meanwhile, I'm excelling in education, I receive many scholarships, awards, and job offers, I volunteer so much (over 200 hours this year), I know I will have no problem getting into the grad school of my choice, my professors love me and see a lot in me - but my relationships fail so much...I am so unhappy despite it all.... screw you life. Am I destined to be alone forever? This seems like a cruel joke.
user
How can I fix my relationships or come to terms with them being sucky and me being
assistant
I went on facebook today and saw a picture of a guy I use to like with a girl sitting on his lap; you can tell they're dating, and I just instantly started bursting out crying. What was wrong with me, why didn't he like me, why am I never enough for others? I just hate myself so much, I feel unattractive, lonely, rejected, isolated, fat, and I've felt this way since I was 13. And I hate the world for being so inhumane and cruel, you realize as you get older, life is never like it is made out to be in the movies, TV, or in books. Life feels bleak and not enriching at all. 

So many of my relationships don't stick ,people come in and out of my life all the time, never sticking around. The only friends I have are guys who are nerdy and have very few friends themselves, my friendships with girls are non-existent. 

I also have allergies and it makes me feel very uncomfortable most of the time. It's a struggle trying to fight my allergies. Ugh I don't know what to do, my life fucking sucks and I hate myself so much. I am 24; had depression since 13. All I have to say is fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkk. (pardon my language)

Meanwhile, I'm excelling in education, I receive many scholarships, awards, and job offers, I volunteer so much (over 200 hours this year), I know I will have no problem getting into the grad school of my choice, my professors love me and see a lot in me - but my relationships fail so much...I am so unhappy despite it all.... screw you life. Am I destined to be alone forever? This seems like a cruel joke.
user
I'm a loser who can't seem to get over myself.
assistant