I[f21] broke up with my ex [m23] after our relationship went for the shitter and he put his hands on me. I packed my stuff and left. Our relationship was less then ideal, but I suppose I stayed because, it was comfortable, and he loved me. Well I thought he loved me. Ever since I left he's wanted me back. This is the most in the 3 years we were together that he's wanted me. It's always been something before me, or me always being alone, awaiting him to come home. Anyway, we still hangout sometimes, and he always tells me he wants to get back together, he misses me, blah blah blah. I can't stand to listen to how he feels, it actually makes me cringe, and makes me exhausted. I feel like I don't love him at all anymore. But the thought of him being out of my life forever somewhat makes me unhappy. Little things that he says or does irritates me more then it used to. I've also been talking to an old "friend" [m25] innocently. He lives kind of far away so I haven't seen him. But the thought of my ex finding out that I've been talking to another guy who I used to sleep with is terrifying. I think I'm only afraid of what he would do. I don't really feel like I care what he would think. (Even though I'd probably hear about it for hours). I don't think I have feelings for this other person, but talking to them is refreshing. I don't feel the urge to rip my hair out when they talk.
user
Ex and I broke up 3 years ago, he's been wanting me back ever since. I can't stand to hear him say he misses me. I don't feel like I love him. Very confused about my feelings. I feel like I'm
assistant
I[f21] broke up with my ex [m23] after our relationship went for the shitter and he put his hands on me. I packed my stuff and left. Our relationship was less then ideal, but I suppose I stayed because, it was comfortable, and he loved me. Well I thought he loved me. Ever since I left he's wanted me back. This is the most in the 3 years we were together that he's wanted me. It's always been something before me, or me always being alone, awaiting him to come home. Anyway, we still hangout sometimes, and he always tells me he wants to get back together, he misses me, blah blah blah. I can't stand to listen to how he feels, it actually makes me cringe, and makes me exhausted. I feel like I don't love him at all anymore. But the thought of him being out of my life forever somewhat makes me unhappy. Little things that he says or does irritates me more then it used to. I've also been talking to an old "friend" [m25] innocently. He lives kind of far away so I haven't seen him. But the thought of my ex finding out that I've been talking to another guy who I used to sleep with is terrifying. I think I'm only afraid of what he would do. I don't really feel like I care what he would think. (Even though I'd probably hear about it for hours). I don't think I have feelings for this other person, but talking to them is refreshing. I don't feel the urge to rip my hair out when they talk.
user
I feel like I'm getting over him, but I still feel like I don't love him.
assistant