I was seeing this guy for about a month and then I moved away for eight months. He kept in touch the whole time and even visited me once. He tried really hard to stay in touch and now that he's dead I've found some of his business related profile things and he used a picture of the two of us as the profile.

The thing is I was really trying to keep him at arm's length the whole time since I've had plenty of bad experiences with getting too attached to someone too soon. Also, I hadn't really settled on how I felt about him and I didn't want to get too close until I knew we would be in the same city, which would have been in January. But we still talked, almost always with him initiating.

Well he passed away in a car crash a few days ago and I guess I had stronger feelings for him than I thought. I'm an absolute wreck. I'm just in a constant state of sobbing or just wiping away tears. I miss him so much and I completely wasted the little bit of time I had with him pushing him away.

I don't even feel like I'm allowed to be sad since I treated him so horribly by constantly keeping him at a distance. I missed a skype call from him 24 hours before he got in the accident. I keep staring at that missed call like it will undo itself.

I just wanted to tell that story. I really needed to say it. Please love the people in your life when you have them.
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woman treats man coldly to protect herself, man dies, woman regrets her
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I was seeing this guy for about a month and then I moved away for eight months. He kept in touch the whole time and even visited me once. He tried really hard to stay in touch and now that he's dead I've found some of his business related profile things and he used a picture of the two of us as the profile.

The thing is I was really trying to keep him at arm's length the whole time since I've had plenty of bad experiences with getting too attached to someone too soon. Also, I hadn't really settled on how I felt about him and I didn't want to get too close until I knew we would be in the same city, which would have been in January. But we still talked, almost always with him initiating.

Well he passed away in a car crash a few days ago and I guess I had stronger feelings for him than I thought. I'm an absolute wreck. I'm just in a constant state of sobbing or just wiping away tears. I miss him so much and I completely wasted the little bit of time I had with him pushing him away.

I don't even feel like I'm allowed to be sad since I treated him so horribly by constantly keeping him at a distance. I missed a skype call from him 24 hours before he got in the accident. I keep staring at that missed call like it will undo itself.

I just wanted to tell that story. I really needed to say it. Please love the people in your life when you have them.
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guy died and I was too far away to try and push
assistant