This is going to sound a bit weird but here goes.  This is a throw away cause I wouldn't admit this to anyone which is why this problem is becoming a bigger issue for me.  

For about 2 years I haven't dated.  In that time, I found this strange and wonderfully amazing addiction that I enjoy alot that I started about a year ago.  I love getting on cam with random guys online and doing some sexual things.  I find it satisfying.  I find it almost better than sex.  I also get a HUGE, AMAZING rush from it cause deep down I'm a people pleaser.

Now in context of a single woman not dating or having no relationship, while it might not be the healthiest behavior, there isn't much harm really.

But I started to casually date a guy a few months ago.  Last night on a date he talked about making our relationship more official.  I really like him and want to be in a relationship.  I'm a relationship girl having dated 3 guys in my adult life for a total of 8 years.  I take dating very seriously and am extremely loyal.  

This recent behavior is new, senseless fun.  The problem is that while I want to stop, I'm constantly thinking of that next fun time online with some random stranger.  I need to stop but don't know if I can.  I think it would be wrong to continue this behavior after I agree to make this dating relationship a bit more serious and exclusive.

Should I tell him even if I stop?  Should I tell him if I struggle stopping?  Should I talk to someone else about it?
user
I have a habit of doing sexual things with random guys online and am having a
assistant
This is going to sound a bit weird but here goes.  This is a throw away cause I wouldn't admit this to anyone which is why this problem is becoming a bigger issue for me.  

For about 2 years I haven't dated.  In that time, I found this strange and wonderfully amazing addiction that I enjoy alot that I started about a year ago.  I love getting on cam with random guys online and doing some sexual things.  I find it satisfying.  I find it almost better than sex.  I also get a HUGE, AMAZING rush from it cause deep down I'm a people pleaser.

Now in context of a single woman not dating or having no relationship, while it might not be the healthiest behavior, there isn't much harm really.

But I started to casually date a guy a few months ago.  Last night on a date he talked about making our relationship more official.  I really like him and want to be in a relationship.  I'm a relationship girl having dated 3 guys in my adult life for a total of 8 years.  I take dating very seriously and am extremely loyal.  

This recent behavior is new, senseless fun.  The problem is that while I want to stop, I'm constantly thinking of that next fun time online with some random stranger.  I need to stop but don't know if I can.  I think it would be wrong to continue this behavior after I agree to make this dating relationship a bit more serious and exclusive.

Should I tell him even if I stop?  Should I tell him if I struggle stopping?  Should I talk to someone else about it?
user
I want to stop dating and I don't know how to. I can't keep going on
assistant