I'll try to make this short and simple. I have a very supportive and loving SO, we've been dating for a lil under a year, and we currently live together. HERE'S THE PROBLEM, I'm currently un-employed and making rent each month is new stressful journey. My SO doesn't have a conventional job either, but  she brings in the lion share of the rent each month. 

This puts a lot of weight on her shoulders. My inability to get a decent job the last few months has hurt my confidence and unfortunately my determination too. While I've been actively seeking work, we both know it hasn't been with the same sense of urgency/desperation that I've shown previously (early in our relationship). I've now found it and I intend to make things right. Scratch that, I'll make things right. Talk is cheap so I'll let my actions talk for me instead of telling her words she's probably heard before. 

But after I do, well...I dunno what to do after. She seems different compared to earlier, and I don't blame her at all. She deserves a lot better than what I've provided her so far. Maybe I Should let her go? I have so much to improve upon and learn. Maybe I should take the time to grow by myself so I don't potentially burden others.
user
Relationship is very difficult, and I'm un-employed and need to get my shit together. I don't know what to do after that.
assistant
I'll try to make this short and simple. I have a very supportive and loving SO, we've been dating for a lil under a year, and we currently live together. HERE'S THE PROBLEM, I'm currently un-employed and making rent each month is new stressful journey. My SO doesn't have a conventional job either, but  she brings in the lion share of the rent each month. 

This puts a lot of weight on her shoulders. My inability to get a decent job the last few months has hurt my confidence and unfortunately my determination too. While I've been actively seeking work, we both know it hasn't been with the same sense of urgency/desperation that I've shown previously (early in our relationship). I've now found it and I intend to make things right. Scratch that, I'll make things right. Talk is cheap so I'll let my actions talk for me instead of telling her words she's probably heard before. 

But after I do, well...I dunno what to do after. She seems different compared to earlier, and I don't blame her at all. She deserves a lot better than what I've provided her so far. Maybe I Should let her go? I have so much to improve upon and learn. Maybe I should take the time to grow by myself so I don't potentially burden others.
user
SO of 1.5 years is not as supportive as I'm used to, I'm unsure if I should let go and try to make things right or if
assistant