It really is all my fault and I need advice.

At around 17 I met my girlfriend (I'll just call N for privacy reasons) and we started dating. She was the best thing to ever happen to me she was everything any guy could ever ask for.

My parents loved her my friends loved her we had a great relationship and I thought she was 'the one' I as sure. After a year we were both headed to college and we were excited her more than me.

After another year I fucked up she ended up pregnant, we discussed options and everything. We were both set on keeping we had a plan and everything but this is where I ruined everything.

I went to a friend's house (P me and her were long time friends) and we got drunk. We ended up sleeping together it was the stupidest thing I ever did and don't know why I did it.

I waited like maybe 2 months and told my girlfriend she was devesated and furious. She waited another month and told me she couldn't do it and left and moved back with her parents.

I haven't seen her in a year but my daughter was already born and she looks beautiful. I would love to be apart of her life but her and N look really happy and I don't think she really needs me in her life.

My family wants us both to visit (they don't know we broke up and that I haven't seen her) and I don't know how to tell them. I they will be disappointed with me big time and ashamed of me.

I'm just not sure what to do I'm lost here and don't know where to turn so I figured Internet strangers could help.
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I fucked up and my girlfriend left with our daughter and now
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It really is all my fault and I need advice.

At around 17 I met my girlfriend (I'll just call N for privacy reasons) and we started dating. She was the best thing to ever happen to me she was everything any guy could ever ask for.

My parents loved her my friends loved her we had a great relationship and I thought she was 'the one' I as sure. After a year we were both headed to college and we were excited her more than me.

After another year I fucked up she ended up pregnant, we discussed options and everything. We were both set on keeping we had a plan and everything but this is where I ruined everything.

I went to a friend's house (P me and her were long time friends) and we got drunk. We ended up sleeping together it was the stupidest thing I ever did and don't know why I did it.

I waited like maybe 2 months and told my girlfriend she was devesated and furious. She waited another month and told me she couldn't do it and left and moved back with her parents.

I haven't seen her in a year but my daughter was already born and she looks beautiful. I would love to be apart of her life but her and N look really happy and I don't think she really needs me in her life.

My family wants us both to visit (they don't know we broke up and that I haven't seen her) and I don't know how to tell them. I they will be disappointed with me big time and ashamed of me.

I'm just not sure what to do I'm lost here and don't know where to turn so I figured Internet strangers could help.
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I was stupid and had a girlfriend who has moved away and
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