Refuse the Call of God? I am a Christian, I want to teach and share the word of God as I wish
but I do no want the call of God upon my life. This may sound weird but please hear me out first.
I want to spread the word of God, its my passionate, something I love to do. But I don't want it to be like tag on me.

I don't know if I'm making sense, I can explain further on request.

My question is, is this ideology wrong?
Jeremiah felt your pain. In chapter 20, he cries out against God, blaming God that he had to deliver these messages of woe. He goes so far as to accuse God of deceiving him:


  You have deceived me, Yahweh, and I let myself be deceived, you are stronger than I and have overpowered me. I have become a laughingstock the whole day, the whole of it mocks me. Every time I speak, cry out “Violence!” and “Destruction!” shout,
  (then) the word of Yahweh becomes for me a reproach and derision the whole day;


That said, Jeremiah understands that he will still be compelled to preach :


  and (every time) I think, “I shall not remember it or speak any more in his name,” (then) it is in my heart,(it is) like burning fire,(like) pressure in my bones,
  and I am tired of holding (it) in,
  and cannot «bear». 


Likewise, Jonah resisted the word of the Lord- and of course he ran. Moses, when he was given the word of the lord basically responded, "here I am, send my brother Aaron!" 

(Indeed, it always makes me laugh when people say the church is just a big conspiracy for some men to gain power over others. I think about how much power any of the prophets ever had, and ask why would anyone have sought that out? Paul was beheaded, Peter was crucified upside down - of the 12 apostles, only John died a natural death. Even later, from Perpetua to Assissi to Bonhoeffer, the faith is not a means of gain!) What you are feeling, when you don't want to have the call of God isn't weird - in fact it is quite rational. But, you love God. And trust me, love is rarely rational. If you are married, you probably remember some of the weird things you felt compelled to do for her too. It's the same thing, only more worth it. 

I say all of this to tell you that you are not the first to love God but not want to deliver his message. It is a terrifying responsibility, and it is not atypical to not desire it. From a worldly standpoint, it will neither win you friends, nor always even let you influence people. 

But take heart, for as Jesus said in Matthew 5:11-12:


  Blessed are you when men shall persecute you and revile you and speak all manner of evil against you for my name sake, for so treated they the prophets who were before you"


Instead just remember what he says to the good ones in Matthew 25:


  Well done, thou good and faithful servant.